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Monday, October 31, 2005

Not a day i really want to remember

Well, well, its been rather up and happy my recent post. Isn't it? Well I feel it is, well, of course now is my down time. I don't really know whether I am feeling depress or not, but its just a feeling I can't really explain in words. I am now feeling rather lethargic and slow. I don't feel much anger, or rather I am not angry at all. I think I am pretty much dispirited, that's all, I guess. I can't really say for sure you know. Well, I do become like this from time to time and yet I don't really know whether it is a good thing or just a horrible horrible stuff. Well today I am so because of me thinking quite a fair bit. Thoughts that I have been thinking throughout my life. Details of those thoughts shall be kept a secret for now. But a whole lot of stuff came bombarding my mind as usual. Luckily I was still heavy with fatigue meaning I was tired and halfway through my thoughts, I would fall asleep. That is good because at least I wont remember what I thought about. Anyways, wanna tell you guys about my drive back home after I send Sue home. Well I encountered a car, a red sports car with a whole bunch of car accessories manufacturer sticker stuck on it. Well in this encounter, the road was narrow, and there were 2 cars already parked opposite of each other making the road even narrower. Of course we met at the narrow part of the road, head on. Only 1 car could pass, and we were both stuck as there were no room for us to move pass each other so 1 of us had to reverse back. I was certainly gonna reverse, but that car driver reverses instead. Sooo, I drove on pass by him. Guess what he was doing. He was cursing non-stop and his side window is down. I only caught a glimpse of him, a cina ah beng guy, who wears spectacles, and not forgetting the most memorable thing about his face is, his pimply filled face. Seriously, his face was covered with pimples that were all red, just like his car and his red P sticker. Seriously, he just swear-ed non-stop, but I couldn't really hear him, but saw his lips moving continuously, with his angry face staring right at me. I was thinking, what wrong have I done? Seriously, this cina ah beng guy has no manners . I wonder where the mannerism has gone to with the new generation of kids. Well, I guess its all down the toilet. Well, that was my 1st encounter, I'll talk about my 2nd but short encounter in the next paragraph.

Well, in my 2nd encounter, there was a family of 3 on a motorbike. And I was driving back, they wanted to cross in front of my car, and since I was pretty much stuck in a jam soo I let the family cross in front of me, on their motorbike of course, and I was happy to receive a thumb's up from the rider, which was most definitely the father. Hahaha, that sure made my day after meeting that stupid cina ah beng. Short eh, yeah it sure was, but it was nice to receive that thumb's up.

Well, well, sorry about the late post. This is because of my freaking bad connection on Sunday night. It was a near stand still connection. Or could I say no connection what so ever. I was seriously angry at that moment. I even felt like punching the damn monitor, as I was doing all I know to help restore my connection. I wasted an hour and a half just doing so. Ended up sleeping at 2 in the morning because of that. Anyways, let me tell the story of my brand new casing. Muahahahaha, yes I just bought my new high tech looking casing for a low price of RM150 with and additional fan that costs me another RM19, totalling to and grand total of RM169. It is considered cheap compared to the other casings that I had in mind. The casing that I was eyeing on had a price tag of RM215. Seriously a nice casing, as it serves the purpose of cooling my computer down. But with a tight budget that I was on, I had to opt for that other casing which is my brand new casing. Hahaha, it looks dam nice I�m telling you. And pretty high tech as it also helps monitor the temperature of my comp. good stuff. Well down here would be a few pics of my brand new casing. With the nice blue LED lighting, it is beautiful.

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Well, it was certainly hard work transferring my stuff from my old (really old) casing to my brand new casing. A lot of things had to be done carefully. I'm guessing that you guys must be wondering why not let the shop do it and be free from the hassle of dismantling and fixing it all back into the brand new casing. Oohhh, it definitely took a lot of time, sweat, blood, and hard work fixing it up. Boy my friend and I was sure struggling to fix it as fast as we could. Well, later I'll take a pic of the old casing bare alright.

Well, I was listening to some music and the music really hits me. Damn it, really really, it just hits me in the heart. As to the feelings that I am feeling at the moment. Ahhhh really really, just dunno what the hell I am feeling no words could really explain it.

Well, enjoy some of my other artsy pictures, and also pictures of my cats. Don't feel like blogging anymore. Soo just enjoy the pics I post.

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posted by Elwyn at 10:26 PM | 2 comments

Sunday, October 30, 2005

My, my i have wasted yet another fine day

Hahahahaha, what a wasted day my Saturday has become. Well, like what I had said in my last post, I was supposed to send my father to KL Sentral, but apparently, my mother said she would send him there instead. Well then, I continued on my sleeping frenzy till 9.15 am. Actually woke up for awhile at 6 something, couldn't really remember as to the exact time la. Anyways, after that I just woke up n went to my beloved comp, and did my ritual on the comp, which was checking for new torrents, checking my downloads, checking my darkthrone account, and checking my friendster. Oohhh I forgot that I also check my emails and also check out any comments on my blog. Then went to have a chat with my mother, and off she went for breakfast. Hahahaha well well, in the afternoon I had a good nap. And by the late evening my friend came by to help fix my computer which was going crazy. Super heated processor, that reached a temperature of 110 degrees Celsius and yet it still survived and not melted. This is superb because my friend told me that by 96 degrees Celsius, it would melt and the processor chip would be gone, no more, doomed. Well, it took us awhile to really understand what's wrong with the comp. finally we gave up and had dinner, and ohh by the way, the comp repair caused me to break my fast late. But it was ok la, because my mind was on the comp, I did break my fast at home, but only with a can of Milo, and a bottle of Vitagen. And then continued abit more on my comp before going out for food. Well, later on, we realized what was wrong with the comp and fixed it immediately. But now I need to foot out at least another maximum RM200 for a new casing which would require no cleaning of the inside. That would be fantastic for me. Hahahahaha, and now I’m pretty much doing what I need to do to repair my comp. Sooo it is just a'ok.

Alright, moving on to the next thing that is the enemies I have made through out my life. Well, I am certainly not a person that people would like, but at least most of the time I'm quiet right. Hahahaha, maybe they interpret my silence differently than expected. Sooo this is the latest case of me being aware of a new enemy that I have made. I'm still pretty vague as to the reason why she treats me soo coldly. Well, I'm talking about my 2nd ex, miss Wi Nie. Well on the Friday night, which was 28th of Oct, I saw her coming online. Sooo I thought maybe I would like to say hi and maybe have a nice conversation with her. But unfortunately she gave me a short sarcastic answer. Well of course I did ask as whether she was still angry over my rants about losing the chance to win the Ipods I forgotten how long back. She replied me that she wasn't angry, and said this exact words to me, I shall give you guys the whole sentence after I asked whether she was angry with the past. She said this "no..but i dun blieve leopard ever changes their spots". Those were her exact words, it's a copy and paste from my message history with her. Sooo I was wondering, how many enemies have I made in my life until now? Well, I need to talk to her about what she really meant by those words I am still not sure. After a short chat with a friend who has a better insight, I just know what to do. But about enemies in my life, I have yet to know my enemies. Well, I guess there are quite a number of people who doesn't like me. Well so be it. I cant help it can I?

Ahhh finally that is off my chest. Muahahaha, I had a good round of dota just now. With odds of 2 vs 4, which is Simon and I against 4 other people. It was certainly unexpected as people started to leave the game. Sad case, but it was good as those who left certainly left some good stuff. Hehehehe, don't really wanna talk about that much do I, cause im sure I would bore you guys to death. Hehehe, but I would say, both of us having double aegis would certainly turn the odds against the enemies. Hahahaha.

Wow, I seem to be blogging a lot nowadays, but now I am smarter. This is because I am blogging on Microsoft Words before I transfer it into the blogger website. Hahaha, smart move right. Well of course, because in Words, at least they'll correct my mistakes for me, or show the mistakes I have made while I typed out my post of that time. Been blogging this way only recently. Hehehe. Blogging is good. I am glad that I receive quite good feedback on my blog. I am quite satisfied with it. Maybe just the google adsense that I am a little worried about. I wonder what changes I can make to make it nicer and more presentable with the google adsense in it. Hahaha I shouldn't blog so much should I?

We all grow over time, and realize of things that we didn't realize before. Growth is a wonderful thing, but while growing up, so does the responsibility. Well, I figure that since I am growing up, there is a need to carry more responsibility. And I certainly do carry a little bit more responsibility than before. I don't really wanna elaborate more abut that, soo we shall move on. Life is short, life is fragile, what we do in life, has an effect that one could ever imagine. Each action leads to a reaction. And we shall see how the world goes about with that. And sooo I shall end this with the last few words. Grow up, be responsible, for your actions, and remind yourself, your every action has a reaction. Sooo live life strong, and live your life like you never have.

Thank you all.

posted by Elwyn at 3:03 AM | 1 comments

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Shopping finally !!!

Ooohhhh finally I'm shopping for clothes. Hahahaha, yeah guys I know it is really weird or funny to you guys to hear me say shopping. Well yeah, I have been eyeing on a few things when I go out you know. Well, finally for the 1st time, I can go shopping for clothes this year. It sounds really weird right, well yeah of course it does. But hey it is almost Raya, sooo I got myself 2 new t-shirts and a sweater. Hahahaha, went to my shopping spot, Sg. Wang, a place where I search for the unique t-shirts, and also the cheapest t-shirts around, for me la of course. Well I got the 2 t-shirts for RM36, and the sweater for RM59.90. Meaning I only spent like RM 100. Well, well there was certainly a lot of walking and I certainly needed a lot of rest, because I was really really tired. What to do, it's the fasting month. But at least I got some stuff for Raya, and Sue certainly got herself some stuff also. Hahahaha, I still have lots to shop for, its just the matter of time, and at the end of the year la, when I would really shop for all the things I've been craving for (material stuff my dear friends, not food). Oohhhh I don't like the coming exams, really disturbing man. Well, I'll just have to make do with what I have now la.

Oohhhh oohhh, why doesn't the original K750 goes down in price. For those who are blur as to what I am talking about, well I am talking about the Sony Ericsson handphone model K750. Well, about 2 months ago, I went to check the price of the K750, and they said the price was RM1890, and sooo I said ok, and today, I asked again but now at a different shop, and they told me that the price is RM1800. 2 months and the phone price only gone down in price only RM90. WHAT IS THIS !!!!! This is a total outrage. Terrible buggers. Nevermind that so much, I'm aiming for a better phone now, the W900i is my new target, but will remain as the secondary in demand as I want a camera phone badly. Ahhh my wants, but 1st I need to satisfy my needs, that is to pass my freaking exams.

Ohhh my exams, yeah yeah my exams will be coming soon, starting on the 7th of Nov, with the MAP paper (macroeconomic principles) follow by ADM paper on Wednesday 9th of Nov (Accounting for Decision Making), and ITM on the following Mon which is the 14th of Nov (Introduction to Marketing), and ends with ISB (Information System for Business) on the Friday. Woah such a long description of my exam dates. Well to make it simple let me rephrase it for you guys out there ok.

Monday 7th Nov MAP (Macroeconomic Principles)
Wednesday 9th Nov ADM (Accounting for Decision Making)
Monday 14th Nov ITM (Introduction to Marketing)
Friday 18th Nov ISB (Information System for Business)

Hahaha there you go, my exam timetable. Muahahahaha finished the damn ISB assignment that was due today. It seriously gave a hard time. Because of the mail merge had a problem loading and I ended up doing the same task over and over again. Really sickening I tell you. In the end I gave up and just handed the work in. knowing it would really just be a piece of diskette with useless info. Hahaha, I gotta sleep soon, since I gotta wake up early to send my father to KL Sentral once again. Since the last time I slept at 3 and ended up lying dead in bed and forced my mother to send my father instead. Sooo yeah, I'm gonna sleep soon enough I'm telling you. Hehehehe, there are more stuff I wanna blog more, but maybe I guess I'll hold back for the moment for another time. Maybe in the Saturday evening or night, after I'm satisfied with the amount of interest put into this post.

Oohhhh this is a self note to myself, to talk about how words can really effect a lot of stuff. And it seems that I have created enemies. It's a sad thing but yeah, it happens, but life still goes on. Sooo just live on.

posted by Elwyn at 1:14 AM | 4 comments

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Life in a mess !?!?

Life is in a mess I tell you. Rather tired meaning rather irritated inclusive of the constant grumbling from my stomach. It craves for food, and so do I. I want the super nice spaghetti Bolognese from Milwaukee. Oohhhh my craving for food is growing in intensity since the fasting month. Well, I have a theory about my weight now. By day, I am a skinny guy who weighs at 66-68 kg and would weigh a near 70 kg by night. What is this man? Well I certainly have my weight-gaining program ready. Muahahahaha. I am most definitely happy for the 10 packets of hershey's nugget milk chocolate, but I am unhappy on the quality of the chocolate. It seems that the chocolate has melted before, and it is pretty hard to eat. Meaning it doesn't melt in my mouth, and I have to bite through it with all my might. Oohhhh saddening. Well, for those who have the newspaper on Rage from The Star, you have realized I am in that newspaper, despite only 1 miserable picture I am in, which is my group photo with my team members for that day.

Well yes, hahahaha, this is the result of that workshop. The picture of people playing Daytona is the work of my team member and I. Ahhh it was good. I was expecting to get more of my pics in. But unfortunately my face is cropped out. Sooo yeah saddening it is again. Oohhh better still, a whole lot of people in my college didn't realize it. Well I don't wanna brag about it to them and giving them a false impression that I am damn vain alright. Well at least there was 1 person in my university realize it. It made my day a little better. This is because there was a quote from me apparently. And I don't think I remember quoting that, but I have a faint memory about saying something nearly the same. But actually those quotes I can only remember from the person in-charge there. The editor or something. Couldn't really be sure, because I can remember. Alright la enough of my vain self in the newspaper. Anyways, the Rage is a complimentary paper that is only distributed in colleges and universities.

Well, well since that is done, I have been reading a few blogs, and it seems there is war between some people. I rather not say who. Its bad you know. Well, if you guys are smart enough you'll get it by reading it from my blog. Well it seems someone has been commenting about other people's driving. That is certainly something I wouldn't condone with all of the incidents that are happening around. But hey, people are entitled to their own opinions right. Well, I am saying all of this based on quotes from my friends whom I have talked to over some time recently. Since you have put up your comments about others, do be prepared for the consequences that follow suit. Well certainly I can't say much in that issue but I just wanna point out, people do take words seriously, and may cause more harm than good.

Sooo the moral of the story, just be prepared for the consequences, and just try to react appropriately all right? I think that due of the recent happenings, (this is only my assumption) a lot of people may have adjusted the sensitivity of their blog's contents to better suit the people around. Of course, there are some people who are still running rampant with them not caring what the world has to say about them. Well I would like to choose of course the famous blogger Xia Xue (XX). It seems that XX has been under fire by a number of comments left on her blog and also posts by other bloggers on the internet. It seems that there is a fight going on between her and some M'sian bloggers. Bad stuff I'm telling you. And it seems that she has lost 2 endorsements due to those incidents. Well it is a high price to pay for being famous I tell you. People would start tos slander those famous people to get famous themselves, don't you think? Or maybe that their opinion clashes with XX's. Well, I don't wanna get into that mess either, sooo I'm not gonna say anything about that would I.

Well of course after the incident that has happened, the tone of this blog has been, uuhhhhh how do you say it, cut off. I'm playing it safe for the moment; don't want to create anymore heated arguments that may lead to future disaster. Because I know that I am already temperamental, and my choices of words/ my vocabulary is rather limited with my shallowness as to compared to others I know, I might get into really serious trouble. I'm already deep in the water with all my recent use of wrong words. I won't go into details there. But yeah, be careful with your choice of words, it may cause more harm than you would ever expect.

Hahahaha, I don't really want to talk about those issues up there anymore, but I have plans to improve my current skin. This skin is really nice, and I plan to keep it for a long long time. With the modifications of course. My plans will be executed after my exams. And of course I am suppose to study now, but the laziness in me is really taking its toll. What to do, a lot of people have started studying, but I'm still not worried about the exams, or am I? Well, we'll see about that. Maybe I should try to study bit by bit. While waiting for someone of course.

Aahhhh yes, it is Monash's exam period. Pretty busy week for them till hari raya. Ooohhhh damn it, talking about hari raya, I still haven’t gone to buy my raya clothes yet. This is bad. Very bad. Raya is soon, very soon. Meaning I can enjoy food once again. But I need to get a new shirt/ t-shirt. Oohhh I got into an argument earlier. This is the argument. Is shirt, the same as t-shirt? I ask you that, and of course I say shirt and t-shirt is different, but someone else beg to differ. Haiya, just causing me headaches to think about it as to give a proper explanation for my stand.

Haihz saddening indeed, this world is. A lot of this are happening, and all I can think of is the words that my mother would say, and something that I used to say when I was a young little kid. Could it really be? Oohhhh this is definitely bad if it is. And soo I would like to make a plea to all my blogders here, please go and enjoy your life to the maximum but of course do think of tomorrow. Because the world is seen to be in chaos. Chaos that has only begun.

Woah serious lines, but yeah, really guys. Live without regrets, take chances, take risk, live life, different from the others. And take your life into your own hands.
Thank You for reading my blog soo far. My posts would be farther apart from each other meaning I'll be blogging less due to the coming exams. I need to do well for this exams to pull myself up for an honour degree or something. It is my parents wish. Soo yeah, I won't be blogging as much as before until my exams are over. Sooo please continue your visits, I don't want to lose my fellow blogders as well. Thank you for supporting me, by reading my blog.

posted by Elwyn at 3:58 PM | 5 comments

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

A life gone astray.

Aaahhhh, what a relieve after I finished my last assignment, but I still have to print it out and all, so still considered not finished just yet. Hehehe, anyways have to start studying for the coming finals, which will start on the 7th of Nov and ends on the 18th of Nov. after that its pretty much home free from there. Yeah, my plan is to gain weight, and yeah maybe try to get a job to fund for my new handphone. Hahahaha, wow, I'm seeing much activity on some of the blogs on my links. This is good.

Hahaha, as it seems, I have a writer's block at the moment despite me having tons of ideas as to what I wanted to write in my blog. Well since I can't think of something at the moment, let me tell you an experience that I had just went through.

Ok, I shall start my very short story when I was leaving Mid Valley (MV) when I had to rush to meet my friends. Anyways, while I was driving, on the way to Taman Connought highway, passing in front of MV, there was a blind turning. And on the road, there was something moving about, I wasn't too sure what it was until I got closer. Ooohhh pain struck my heart, as I saw a kitten that seemed to be less than a year old having all 4 of its legs struggling in the air while its head is on the ground. Then only I realized that the poor kitten was already hit by a car. I didn’t get the chance to react as fast as I could to run over that poor kitten and end its misery.

Well I'm sure you would be telling to yourself, what kind of human am I to say such a thing or to do such a thing. Well this is my reasoning; the kitten was already injured and struggling on with its life in extreme pain and misery. I doubt any bystander would help that kitten or neither would there be a car driver who would stop and pick it up, unless that person wants to get into an accident, which would probably claim his life. Soooo, the most that I could do for that kitten was to end its pain and misery. Well, what do you think? I'm really looking forward for your feedback, if you are willing to put it in here.

Well today, on my way to Sunway, using the Puchong way, I saw a cat, on the railing, the cement railing at 1 of the fly overs, actually the fly over to Sunway from Puchong. It seemed rather lonely there. I only caught a glimpse of it. But I certainly saw it looking down at I’m not sure what.

Well, well it may seem like a rough day and I’m pretty tired nowadays, rather the lack of sleep and proper rest. Ooohhhh seems like I'm pretty much pissing quite a number of people with my choice of words. Soo yeah, I guess I should keep my mouth shut for awhile and my message to a halt. I'm feeling sooo tired and yet I have to wake my father up for 'sahur', which means eating before I go to sleep. Yeah fatigue is really getting to me.

Oohhh well, life still have to go on. Isn’t that so? Well it certainly does for me.

Wanna wish everybody who is reading, have a good time, and may all of you do well in everything that you are doing.

posted by Elwyn at 11:05 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Life, just as it is.

Ooohhhh what a tiring day it was for me. Muahahahaha, guys guess what, I might be appearing in the newspaper. Hehehehehe look out for me ok. Well this is the case. If you haven't been keeping up to date on my posts, well today I went to the photography workshop at the Sunway Lagoon Club. But I didn't really know where it was and I had a stupid misconception as to where the Sunway Lagoon Club was. Sooo guess where did I end up at 1st, I ended up at Sunway Pyramid, thinking it is somewhere near there. Boy was I totally wrong. Lucky I left my house early, knowing that I would certainly get lost to that place. In the end, I reach the designated area. Muahahahaha. Anywayz, at the workshop learned quite a number of new stuff that I can do with my camera. Hehehehe, gonna explore more and maybe do some nice scene shots, with special meaning behind every picture.

Well actually I'll explain abit about the workshop. There was a small talk as to how the camera works (or should I say, the functions of the camera and the small little icons that I didn't know what it was earlier on) n then we had practical, meaning hands on experience as we went around shooting for pictures. In the class also, we were taught the different techniques of getting a proper shot. Soooo the whole bunch of us, 21 of us to be exact went around the Sunway Lagoon Club taking pictures of things that might amaze us, or maybe you can say, attract us. Sooo I took quite a few shots. Later they had lunch, I went in to have a peek at what they were eating, and boy was I tempted. The food looks damn nice I'm telling u guys, really !!!! Well, if you don't believe me, take a look of this few pictures.

Well well I can say that I am a fool in taking pictures, but I want my pictures to hold its own meaning, and my pictures is left for the public to decide what it is. Well you see, the facilitator said that the picture should have at least a meaning to it, a subject or something. Can't really remember what was taught in class since kinda slept half way through. Really seriously when that guy talks, he can be abit dull. But anyways, there was a 2nd practical that involved in taking pictures in Sunway Pyramid with the theme "Young Trends". Well my team members and I sucked at taking shots and my camera's data can't be read on the laptop the facilitator had because of its uniqueness. Don't wanna explain much on it because its sure to bore you. Anyways, ok we sucked at taking sneak shots. Because we were suppose to take pictures of young people. Sooo yeah have to move on and taking the as many pictures as we could.

Alright, it has been rather tiring with all the dota and stuff. Maybe I'll fill you in more the next time I something new.

Sooo see ya guys, but before I leave, I wanna leave a msg cum poem cum advice.

Life is never what it seems,
Life is full of the good things that really makes you happy,
But life also is full of bad things that will ruin your day.

So do we do to face this challenge,
We find ourselves with the help of our frens,
Or whichever method you find most comfortable with.

It is times like this that you find your true strength,
Find that strength,
And lead yourself to the path you choose.

Alright, I have to say it is a sucky poem. But I gave my try at it. Lets just hope you guys out there enjoys it.

posted by Elwyn at 1:44 AM | 2 comments

Friday, October 21, 2005

My accursed computer is having its HOT!!! temper

Ooohhhh my gawd damn computer of mine is giving trouble again. It is very hot temper indeed. A staggering 91 degrees Celsius temper. It overheated because my stupid thermal paste is like missing from the part that links the heat sink and the processor. Damn was I pissed at it. It really made me cannot play dota on the night that I was damn happy to play it. Stupid computer of mine needs more upgrades, but where do I come up with the money to finish the upgrades necessary for the upgrades? Selling my ass? I don't think so. Soooo I guess I have to come up with another skim to help gain money for the finishing upgrades necessary for my comp, that is a new casing which wont let any dust in. that would be most suitable casing for it. But also not forgetting a casing that cool down easily. I need such casing for my current partially upgraded comp.

Anyways, despite the bad news about my comp, I got good news. Do you remember from my last post, about me trying to register for a photography workshop? Well, my registration has been accepted and I have a workshop on photography from 9 till 4 in the evening. Sounds a little too long, well I don't think so. Would be just nice to explore the things that might be taught at the workshop. But I'm wondering if I have to pay for the workshop? Well we'll go there and see won't we. Hehehehe, it is something I want to do for quite some time. Hehehehe, happy happy I am. Sorry about the blog, it isn't really well kept at the moment, pretty busy with my life. Sooo yeah gotta move on with life and the best out of it. I dunno how many times I've repeated myself on it. Well, if you don't mind, I'll repeat it as many times as I want.

Alright, I think I need to go for sahur now, and get a good night sleep. Sooo see you guys later.

posted by Elwyn at 11:52 PM | 0 comments

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Its COLD!!!!

Wazzup people, well, ok I missed a day of blogging, but that is ok right. Well, I see that Jay Shen (JS) is becoming active in his blog, but his blog is unreadable. I have complain on his tagboard but I myself not sure what I was typing on his blog because all the words are just tooooo hard too see. The color of his words were blending with the background. But I have to compliment on his nice background with all those animes. Its quite nice, but seemed a little amateur kind, but who am I to complain, hell, I don't think I could come up with such nice background myself. But wait, did he did that on his own? Or did he get help from someone else? Well it doesn’t really matter anyways. Well over the past few days, I've been feeling really cold, especially with the damn cold weather, and the cold classrooms because of the air-cond. I am freaking cold. Alright, after the news of me bring cold, I have shocking news about myself.

I've lost 3kg !!!!!

This is serious my dear blogders. People ask me to eat more, and I really want to eat more, but of course my stomach can only take up to soooo much till it feels like it wants to explode. Soo yeah, I am trying my best to regain my weight, or maybe just trying to maintain the lost of only 3kg and not lose more of my weight. I really don't want to lose it. Because I am already underweight, and I was sooo happy when I reached my target weight of 70kg, meaning now I am 67kg. It may seem quite heavy to you, but consider my height as well ok. I am 186 cm tall. Allright people enough about my weight, I can only rant about it. It is totally up to my body whether it wants to lose more weight, maintain or gain more weight. Oooohhhh it also has to depends on my eating also.

Alright, after the completion of my ITM assignment, I have to get started on my ISB assignment, a word documentation of the Microsoft Access work that I’ve been doing over the past weeks. Well, it will be another long 1 sooo I decided to blog a lil before I start on it. And ohhh did I mention that I just send an email asking to be signed up for a photography workshop on this Saturday, at the Sunway Lagoon Club (where is that place ?? I have no idea where it is). Hehehehe, a sudden thing eh. Well this time I will claim for the camera from my father for Saturday then. Hehehehe.

Well people I know you guys have tons of things to do and also other blogs to read. Come again later to read my blog alright !?!? And also the google adsense is there for a reason. Do check it out.

posted by Elwyn at 11:41 AM | 3 comments

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Stress + Work + Assignment + Fasting = SUPER DEAD TIRED

Ooohhh my gawd, I soooo dead tired despite after sleeping for I dunno how many hours man. Ooohhh my fatigue level is far higher than before. Most probably like what my title said, stress + work + assignment + fasting = super dead tired. I wonder if I could last till the end of the fasting month or not. I already lost 2kg since the last time I weigh myself. Soooo that means I dropped from 70kg to 68 kg. Really, I too am feeling hungry at this moment. Hunger is eating me alive. Its really eating me alive, as I seem to be thinner than before. There are physical evidence of my decline in size now. Haiya, how could this happen to me. Most probably because I didn't eat as much as I did last time during the breaking fast time. Well, lets just say I'm sooooo dead without my usual food. Soooo, am I to lose more of my weight, that I worked sooooo hard to gain. I hope not. But there isn't much to eat at home either.

Ooohhhh and it seems that everyone is stressing about the coming exams … especially for the monash people. Their exam is next week man. Unlike VU, there's still another assignment due. Actually 2 more assignment from the subject ISB, which 1 of them I have no clue as to what is needed to do. Well just try to simply do it la then. Can't really be helped la. Alright, time to move on, as hunger is getting the best of me.

Hehehehe, tooo freaking tired to really do much nowadays. Yeah yeah. Life is pretty stressful. Soooo I hope you guys out there really can do what you guys really want to do. And also a little congratz to those who has just found their other half, meaning found a partner in their life at the moment. There are 2 that I know of. But I won't be mentioning names, as it is their own privacy.

Sooo, life live cool, strong and believing alright guys. Make your own life more meaningful.

posted by Elwyn at 6:45 AM | 0 comments

Monday, October 17, 2005

Thank you for the talk.

Well the title sure speaks for what I am about to talk here now doesn't it? Well after having the talked, which I felt that someone else needed more than me, I felt quite happy. Well I don't really want to get into details here. And sooo this is an apology for those who I have mentioned earlier about my silent readers, and especially Neal my man. I didn't knew that there were even more complex situation that truly caused the beginning of this incident. Well, I have to say this. The person who you really need to talk to isn't me. Because, you guys seriously need to talk to her. As like my last sentence there, talk to her. I'm seriously ok already.

Alright, enough said there. Now I wonder as to what is really going on with the people who started the incident. They seem to be nowhere to be found. I really didn't see any of them today, except for 1 of them who seemed very moody, hence the long face. Well, I dunno for sure, but hey, I'm giving some time to see how things work out. And for the record guys, she is blaming herself a lot, and I can't seem to stop her from doing so without your help. Sooo this is my plea to all of you that are concerned, please talk to her about the situation now. She needs to know what is going on more than me. Sooo instead of a plea, I beg you guys please please tell her what is going on, and the rest that she wants to know. Alright guys? I hope you guys will help me out on this.

Well, I am pretty much happy as to what was talked about to me. Thank you all for your concern, I can tell you this. I am a'ok. Hehehehe, I guess after I layout my true self on my blog, I truly found out people really care for me. I'm happy for this. Thanks to all of you. My deepest gratitude to all of you. Thank you.

Well, my fellow blogders, thank you for reading my blog until now, I appreciate it greatly. Life shall be hectic for me for the next few days as a result of my assignment due on Thursday evening and I have to pass up the soft copy online before that deadline. Soo please forgive me if I do not post any thing new for the next few days to come.

Well I guess it is time for me to start on my accursed assignment whom some has passed up today. Sooo to avoid my demise, I have to begin my work immediately to ensure my safety for the compilation of the work and the passing up of the work.

Sooo, this is a farewell to all blogders out there reading my blog, whether in silence or noisily. I am glad you have come to visit this blog of mine. Thank you.

posted by Elwyn at 10:04 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Wasted day ?!?!

Its just another day wasted just like that. Well actually, I'm suppose to start on my assignment right now, but as it seems, it is rather too cold of a day to really think hard. Soo I just work hard, by cleaning my room. Sadly I yet have not gained a camera of my own, leading me to conclude that I couldn't give u guys out there a before and after look of my room. Sad hor, but what can I do. Camera stolen by my father for his work. Sooo I'm again ranting that I'm without a camera. Well lets move on ok. Ok sadly, I wasn't really serious in cleaning my room, sooo I kinda dilly dallied around. Boy was I surprised to see a lot of dust lying around my room. Even a funny looking worm that crawled out from under a small piece of carpet that lies under my table. This worm was rather small. But it was quick on it's feet, that's for sure. But suddenly it stopped and oohhh I look for something to kill it with. Most definitely I killed it ok. Damn it I don't want such a creature crawling onto me in the middle of the night would I? Well of course I found a paper that was already in the bin, the rubbish bin of course and "Splat" it goes. Hehehe mean bugger I am. Well that is pretty much the interesting stuff that happened during my room cleaning.

Ooohhh, before I forget, I just reset my "Sitemeter" counter. This is because I wanna track my readers from now on. Yeah, checking out who has been coming to my blog that is. Because there have been a number of people from places even I have no idea existed coming to my blog. But hey, I welcome everyone to my blog. Oohhh 1 more thing, I must be hell of a scary guy for people to stay away from commenting in my blog, or maybe just because of my unfriendly attitude this year? Well I dunno for sure, sooo lets leave it for a few more weeks la. Like friends who have come and commented, which is mostly and if not mistaken, only Joey commented on my blog recently. But I am happy to see a few old inactive bloggers back up. And now they have been messaging me in my chatbox. Pretty happy with that. Hehehe, and sooo the issue of my blogders on my blog will be a issue of the past.

Now I'm more worried about the day I am gonna go through for the coming week. Ooohh most probably I might not be bumping into them as often as I did last time because I have to finish up my unfinished assignment. The ITM group assignment that is. Hehehehe I'm pretty screwed, am I not? Well I feel I'm quite screwed you know. But nevermind that, I'll always find a way around it.

Anyways, this is the question that is playing in my head. How would everyone be tomorrow, considering, the rift is there already. Ooohhhh its definitely bugging her more than me. I think I'm quite ok, don't you think?

Alright la, that's all I have to blog for now. Maybe another time? I have plans for my blog, and also for its contents. But I'm rather busy at the moment to really start on my project for my blog. Well, lets just say the project shall be delayed till after my exams alright people. I shall reveal my project then. Sooo have a happy time, and just be sure, to drop me a comment on your way out. I would greatly appreciate it. See ya guys.

posted by Elwyn at 10:51 PM | 1 comments

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Separation !?!?

Ooohhh, its been rather, uhhhh, I can't seem to find a proper word for it. But it all seems too quiet for me. Not totally quiet, but rather quiet compared to last time. It has also been rather cold lately.

Haihz, its been rather tough, as I don't really see them that often anymore either. Most probably I am too caught up with my assignment. But of course, since last time, I wasn't really close to them. Sooo why the long face of not seeing them? Well actually, if you read the last post of mine. You would know that I am a listener, and just listening to people talk is already good enough for me. Too bad that I feel more awkward being with them. And nowadays, they have grown to have more friends as to compared to me. Hahahaha, its pretty sad right.

I'm not too sure as to what really happen, neither do I really understand what the fuss is all about, but hey, I can't change the past. Sooo I guess I have to move on. Hahahaha, it would be another rough and long journey for me then. I know this would be a very likely move if things doesn't get any better soon. Also meaning a huge bridge connecting to many would be burned.

Well, I'll leave it be for another week or so. If things doesn't warm up and the coldness is still there, I guess its pretty much me having to pack up and move on. That is how I see it now. Considering how close the rest of them to each other. I was never really part of them due to my quietness when I'm with them, also my fault so I don't blame them whatsoever. And of course I am NOT blaming anyone for this, and you know who you are. Its human nature, I know and I expected it.

Soooo I would just like to end this post pretty much soon. Don't worry tooo much about me, I'm pretty cool with it. And this shall be my last words of this post. Shall there be a separation ???

P.S. i noticed i repeated myself quite alot in this post, sooo forgive me on this alright.

posted by Elwyn at 10:46 PM | 0 comments

Friday, October 14, 2005

Do you want a piece of me ??

Hehehehe, as expected there isn't much readers on my blog and also seems like people are afraid of me. Well, there is nothing to be afraid of. You talk to me and I'll talk to you as well. But hey, I don't think my message is getting through to people. So I might as well just blog whatever I feel like blogging. Ahhh, the beauty of blogging without any cares for the world. That is how I wanna blog for now. Maybe I'll do some reading up on the topics I enjoy reading/knowing/talking about, as it would be the best for my blog and myself right now. Don't you think? Why am I asking you readers, how silly could I be!?!? Knowing there isn't much people out there who would read and leave me comments or messages on my tagboard except for the certain few people I know, I am a fool to think that people would come to this blog of mine.

Oohhh oohhh, people who are involved in the incident before this, do not worry about me, because, most of my posts are written at the spur of the moment, meaning that I am feeling that way during the period I blogged. It wouldn’t last long as I would forget about it after sometime, unless it is brought up later and reminds me back of the past. That is the main reason why I am sooooo forgetful. There are soo many things I wish to forget, but it would be impossible to do so you know. Well yeah, being me sucks. Well, this is the insight that was given to me by the future psychologist, "you are suffering from mild depression", hell even I know that. I think I have been suffereing from it since I was quite young I think. I start to notice it since I was Form 1.

Ahhh my little life story (not all but a brief 1). Well well, actually, I always felt lonely, dunno why though. That's why I like being around my friends in school, but only in school would I be around them. Usually on weekends, I would be home staring at my computer. That's how it has always been for me over the secondary school period. Except for a selective few weekends where I would go out with a bunch of friends. That is also when I kinda invite myself in. Ooohhhh my gawd, I'm finding another lame excuse for the way I am. How stupid of me doing so. Well let me continue my rant here ok.

Well it was certainly how I got sooo depressed. Jealousy, of others being able to have sooo close friends made me feel like I'm just too lonely in the world. Despite having both my parents by my side, I still felt the loneliness. And for the many years of me being alone, it really got to me. I find it hard to make friends, and also really mix with others. Soo yeah, this is how I was.

It is also a fact that I have given up hope on life many many times before. But I am lucky I have a bigger head than a heart. The thoughts that crossed my mind bears more weight than what my heart told me to do. Hehehehe, couldn't believe it. Well believe it. By form 2 or 3 I was pretty much a pessimist in many things, but I still had some hope. Well over the years of course my hope started to dwindle. Well it was the same till last year, actually beginning of last year. Hoping that I might be able to have a better chance, I had some big hopes. That's the reason why I changed and be the happy go lucky / super blur guy there. Well still my old self had a very firm grip on me. Sooo I went back to drowning myself in self pity and other stupid stuff. Then I read a book, forgot what was the title. The closest that I can remember the title of the book was. The 5 or 6 people you meet in heaven. Kinda made an impact. Made me learn something. As a result, I am living to make for the better or the worse for people who are related to me, and also for the better or the worse for me from other people who are also related to me. Well I'm pretty sure those book readers (should I call them book worm) knows the book, those who really really reads a lot.

Alright, enough about me. Sooo my new readers and also the normal readers, you will now know MaS, or what he was used to be known as MaSaLaH, which meant problem for those who doesn't know the malay language (this is not an insult, but it is really for those people who are not Malaysian). Alright, I've blog pretty long haven't I, well of course I am blogging this long because I have to wait a long time for someone before I can go back. But it is ok la, at least I'm blogging out my true self, aren't I. Well I know this may be toooo much information about me to everyone out there. But it is just for me to give you guys a layout about me.

This is a 1-time thing, I don't really want such things to be on my blog 24/7, so I write it in this post so that after a few more post it wont be in your sight anymore. Well, a question for all of you, and if you are willing to answer, what would you do now if you were in my shoes???
That's pretty much all I wanna say for today, wait for another post, soon. But need to start on my damn assignment, but I'll make time to blog, soo don't worry.

P.S. I do not hold anyone liable for anything that happens to me, especially the future psychologist. As for her case, i already self diagnose myself with depression years ahead of the time she told me. She is only giving her opinion as a friend, and she as a friend i trust.

posted by Elwyn at 5:09 PM | 2 comments

A late night post for you guys out there from me

Well, I have been doing quite a lot of thinking, the a note that I got through someone. Do I really belong to the crowd of friends I am? Because I'm feeling lost with them, I can't relate to what they are talking about most of the time, and feel lost most of the time. That's the reason why I am sooo quite. It is because I dunno what they were talking about, and neither am I the spontaneous guy who could just suddenly say something to intrude their conversation. Most probably it is the lamest excuse that you would have ever heard. But to me, it is the truth. I find it hard to speak, as I myself don't really understand what they are saying, soo I just listen. I know that I am a fool doing so, but there isn't much I can do to overcome this in a short period of time except to listen to them. I do want to take a proactive action in starting the conversation, but sometimes, just find it hard.

And soooo my life goes on, despite having 1 of the presentation finished, except for the cutting and pasting left to do. I have 1 more assignment due on next Thursday as Friday is a public holiday for my university. Soooo I definitely have a beautiful weekend dat follows, filled with brimming beauty of assignments, assignments, and a lot of things to read up on the assignments. Soooo lets just go on.

Alright, moving on to the "Transporter 2" that I had just watched, it was a dull movie, due to the fact of the poor storyline. Despite the poor storyline, the actions, the cars, and the stunts are magnificent. Though many of the stunts are superbly fake man, seriously it seems tooooo fake. Ohhh wanna know who are the takers of my tickets, well it was my old close friend Simon and his university friend, James (a Malaysian Thai guy, p.s. he is a rich bugger from what I heard) who went to watch the movie with me. And of course being the funny man my friend Simon is, there was a lot of jokes and stupid stuff. Anyways, just glad he was able to make it for the movie. Hehehhee.

Alright guys, I better get some sleep. Got an early morning to wake up to as I have to finish up on the cutting and pasting for my assignment.

See ya guys...

posted by Elwyn at 1:12 AM | 0 comments

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

A stress relieving post.

Ohhhh my gawd!!! I'm feeling soooo dam tired. extremely tired i'm not so sure why i'm feeling that way. I'm now at the library computer lab doing my assignment halfway, but seemed very tired to do so, and rather distracted. So i blog here now to relief me of this sleepiness before i go for my lecture. Alright everyone, it seems that my blog isn't pretty much read by many. So i don't really have to worry about infuriating the general public won't I. Well, we'll see about that later. And ooohhh Joey, you said about them not being bloggers. Well i suspect that they are bloggers, but not frequent bloggers, wanna know the 1st name that was mentioned by Amirul, the person who told him about the post in Sue's blog. Its Neal. He has his own blog right, but he doesn't blog as much as you and me and also Sue. Sooo they maybe understand, they maybe don't understand. We'll have to wait for their response though.

Anyways, feeling much better now after blogging this paragraph out. And yeah, threatening is bad. But an apology is needed after that if you don't mean it right? I'll let you, my readers be the judge of it.

posted by Elwyn at 12:15 PM | 2 comments

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Well, we all live by listening to what people say don't we.

Ahhh life, its come to you in many different forms of challenges, well isn't it weird to have people listen to what others have to say ? Well i guess that people do listen more to friends compared to checking out the truth for themselves. Ahhh people ooooo people, its just hard to understand them, isn't that so? Well i really wonder what blogs are for anyways. This is because there was a situation or more correctly an incident which was led to by a post on a blog. I don't quite understand people, it is ok for them to talk bad about their friends behind their back, but it is not ok for someone to blog about his o her feelings online? Well i know each person is different, and therefore needs different ways to talk about their problems. Okay, for an example, me, i truly find it had to speak out, to voice out my anger and i never really found a way to do so, even till now. Is it too had to accept that people badmouth you online where the poof is just there, compared to people talking bad behind your back where the truth may not be totally communicated or maybe misintepretation of the words that are spoken. Well, people won't change much from who they really are. Its really troublesome when people would simply bang you. I find it hard to believe that some people just gets offended for the past. Well i live by the idea of live life and let go. Meaning just forget whatever problems that might occur la.

I find it abit too much on that paragraph sooo i continue on this new paragraph. Well, don't you think it is rather harsh to go around threatening people (what i can remember being threatened was, "i'll smash your face" and thats all i can remember) . Do you like when people just go around threatening others. Maybe you do, maybe you don't. What kind of civilised man would do such a thing. Hahahahaha, civilised man. I'll laugh to that. Do you think humans are civilised? Give me your thoughts about it. I'll be waiting for it. Including all of you silent readers who are really fucked up and never tell that you have visited the page. Dumb fucked up fools. If you come and read a new post, the least you could do is say hello. Well this is a blog anyways, so i guess they don't feel obligated to. Well can't force them either. So be it. I just can't understand the world much anymore. Its just way too complicated. Ahhhh, bloggers, who treats their blogs as online diaries. Why can't people read it and just stay quite about it. Fine people are people.

And we move on to the personal message i have here, despite my low number of readers is that for all of you amirul's friends, who has read blogs in silent and not even say a word when you come by, convey your message properly, and why do you guys love to flame people into heated arguements !?!? Why not just let it go and move !?!? Ohhh if there is anyone who wants to have a go at me, or even wants to beat the crap out of me, or even come and confront me? I'll gladly welcome all of you.

Well life is a crazy ass fool who loves to play games with us. Thats what i think la. Can you guys explain to me, this simple minded fucker reasons as to why people like to talk bad behind people's back? Well my opinion would be that it is human nature. Isn't it? Haihz, sometimes people just don't think properly and act according to their feelings. Hehehehe, well just let it be la. Can't really be bothered la.

Truly wonders, where do i fit in this damn place. I really wonder. Haihz, life is too puzzling, its tooooo hard to solve. Ooohhh i just wanna lay back and relax man.

Hahahahaha, i was holding 2 tickets to the premier of "Transporter 2" on this friday. It was generally hold for the friends in college. Now i wonder if i should pass it to them or not. Or maybe get some of my other friends to join me. But i think it is too far for them to drive all the way to pyramid for a premier. Ok now i'm calling for all of my friends who are reading this, this is a short notice for the premier screening of "Transporter 2". It is at Sunway Pyramid at 9.45 pm. That is the time of the movie. If you are interested, give me a call, or message me on my phone to get those screening. And 1 more thing. It is for 2 people, so bring a friend with you. Oooohhhh now you are asking where i got the tickets from? Well i got it from 'Cinema Online', i kinda guess the number of chocolates in the jar quite correctly. But i didn't claimed the prize on the day itself that i won because i was already far away. So i was told to go to their office to get the prize. So i did went to their office only to find out, that the real prize was already given away to another lady. Soo as a compensation, i was given a goody bag containing Cadbury products, but i was told that the goody pack isn't the same as the 1 that they were suppose to give out. As a result, i got extra compensation, that is the free tickets and a copy of the latest 'Cinema Online' magazine. Oohh, why I am giving away my tickets is because Sue has 2 tickets as well. Meaning each of us has 1 ticket extra, as kind hearted we are, we wanted to give them away. But now a dilemma has arisen, and so i am calling for all of my friends out there. You want the tickets, tell me, call me, message me.

Hehehehe well, looks like i've run out of words to say on my blog. But this post is also considered long and has alot of things that might get me fucked up. But hey, get on with your own life man. Don't linger on the past. It just hurts.

Alright, everyone, thanks for reading the new and improved Life Of MaS !!!

posted by Elwyn at 6:50 PM | 7 comments

Monday, October 10, 2005

Life, how do you live your life ?

Wow wow, isnt the world a hectic place to be in now? My family sure isnt in a good mood despite it being my father's birthday and all. And yet all i feel is that something is just wrong in my family. Do you feel it in yours ? Please do tell me if you do. Sometimes don't you feel that your family is breaking apart. Well i do feel it alot nowadays. Since we are always sooooo distant from 1 another. Ohhh what is gonna happen to this family of mine. Sadness will reign i guess. Will anger flying around, im sure that my family would be a happy family as at certain times, everyone would seem sooo cheery and happy, but other times, just gloomy and moody. Ahhhh my family is quite in a mess. Well this is what we call family for you, a happy family at that. Well im moving on to the next thing that has crossed my mind recently.

Well, isn't the world a screwed up place. Well after what i have read in the newspaper today, i really do think this world is a really screwed up place to be. Well, didn't you read the news about the recent earthquake that claimed the lifes of more than 20,000 people. Well, this is the conclusion that i have drawn from this is that, the planet is taking its own sweet revenge against us humans who has desecrated her in far tooo many ways. Her beautiful flora and fauna, all desecrated for the sake of humans. Sooo who is to be blamed for the natural disasters that are occuring nowadays. With the increased frequency in the natural disasters that are occuring, where is the cause of this. Well, it is most definately the growing population of the human kind and also land and resources harvested to satisfy the needs and wants of the human race. What about the needs and wants of the flora and fauna that exist. Shall their existance be terminated to satisfy ours. Well that is most certainly yes for the most of us on this dying planet. Well, i know this for a fact, that the human race has has created an imblanace in nature that was never intended to be. Well what to do. Just live on while the planet continues on to the path of destruction.

Arrggghhhh, well i think pretty much most of you would have known i'm an atheist. But yet i still act like a muslim, why do you ask ? Well it is because it has become a tradition for me. Every year i will fast as usual la and yet i do not pray or go for prayers. Yeah im a pretty much bad boy. Anywayz this is the paragraph where i put all my thoughts about what i had wrote earlier. I'm am being very frank and honest in my blogs nowadays. With all my family problems and stuff, i really wonder, if my life would be ok in the future. Because it seems very uncertain nowadays. My parents always talking about divorce in front of me asking me whether it would be ok or not. And of course htis was my answer "its ok as long as i have a roof over my head and food to eat and also clothes to wear. That is all the necessities i need. But i want more, to satisfy my wants. I want to photoblog. But the camera that was meant to be for the house was taken away by my father for his work uses. As a result im lieft with no camera except for my webcam. That is the reason why i only got 1 common background for my latest pictures. I wanna take pictures soooo badly. Well that is pretty much wat i have to say about the 1st paragraph.

Now i'm gonna talk about the earth. But i feel that what i say here may be really offensive for a number of readerss out there. But i wanna say this. It is time to repay our debt to the earth. It is time for us to die. To pay for the sins of our past generation . Hehehehe, well we are more corrupted than the generation before us. Where am i going with this. Well i won't just say it yet. Since my atheisism is different la. I live to survive through the tough times. But yet i still will fall to the ground slammed hard on the concrete floor to only make me realize, life is a bitch if you are not careful. Sooo everyone, just live ur life the way you want or you shall regret ur whole life.

Well that is all for tonight, soo long and goodnight.

posted by Elwyn at 11:13 PM | 1 comments

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Ohhh, I love my new skin

Wazzup everyone. Well, my title says it all doesn't it. I certainly lovethis new skin of mine. Took me quite some time to search for it, and also to modify it to fit to my new needs as a blogger. Hahahahaha, well it is a new beginning as i said before. But i always say i start a new beginning right, well this time it is for real. A new start for the search of my old me, and to evolve it to a futher more mature personality. Despite of what i had just said, i would still be my old self. Hehehehehe, im not too sure about myself either. Need some soul searching, and also some feedback from friends. Need to know my weakness, and to assess it whether i should overcome those weakness or not, depending whether it is something that would define me unique from the others.

Anyways, soul searching can wait, now i need to focus much on my exam (ADM exam on monday the 10th October 2005) which i havent studied for yet. Hahahaha it is a laughter for me, as i am blogging here ( as well as chatting ) instead of studying. BAD BOY BAD BOY. If Sue was to find out this is what i am doing, i am soooooo screwed. Hehehehehe, but don't worry, i'll make it through somehow. Hehehehehe. Well, gotta go now to study abit, before sleeping, knowing that i am super sleepy at the moment.

Alrite mates, time to study, sooo long and goodnight.

posted by Elwyn at 10:22 PM | 1 comments

Finally, the new skin has been loaded up.

As you can read from the title, this is my new skin for my blog. Isnt it pretty and beautiful at the same. It certainly is to me. I couldnt take it anymore, my eyes cant open anymore and my brain just went dead on me. SOOOOO , farewell and have a good night sleep.

posted by Elwyn at 1:33 AM | 0 comments

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Sorry didnt do much updates

Well well, actually now im contemplating on changing this current new skin to a better skin, but the html codes for dat blogskin is currently being modified by me, MaS as i need to make it look dam nice and works well. Dats the reason of the delay, my new blogskin currently have a few problems, it even made me slept late. You wanna know why?!?! Well it is because i constantly try to fix a problem but always have difficulty in doing so. So i slept 1st before continuing today, but unfortunately, i doubt i can do so.

So my dear readers, despite all the sad and terrible post before this, worry not about me, life still goes on. Anywayz, gotta ciaoz soon as gotta go to college, for something. I wont tell till im done though. So await for future news about me alright. And also await for the new skin that i have installed for all of you my readers.

See ya.

posted by Elwyn at 7:36 AM | 0 comments

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Peace y'all, i'm a'ok. Really man really.

Well yeah, i am pretty much well and living, that is for certain. Hehehehe, well isn't life a bitch to bring you down but only to have yourself waking up as a new person, trying to live life the best you can.

Well, as you can see, with the reopening of my blog, i have totally understood how i was feeling and how i was then. I now seek to redefine myself and giving myself a new chacne to restart how i should handle life. Now its gonna be a different thing for me already.

Soooooo ... people, don't worry too much about me. hehehehe

posted by Elwyn at 6:45 PM | 0 comments

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

life sux as usual .....

feels like ... the world is not ngam with me ... definately .... i need to find ppl who im comfortable with ..... cos .. with the current bunch of frens ..... they sure make me feel left out .... n its rather late to join in other cliques .... soo .... im at a losing point now .... its gonna screw me up badly .... may life be better ... or i'll really lose it ...

posted by Elwyn at 6:19 PM | 1 comments

Sunday, October 02, 2005

shall it be a new beginning ???

i dunno ..... sumtimes im positive .... sumtimes im negative ..... its really ...... how i am ...... im easily distress about stuff ...... im a worrier .... i get worried over simple stuff ..... n yet .... i cant handle them well ..... dam it .... how am i to survive in this wretched world ..... the world is a harsh place to survive ..... really .... i dunno la ..... im feeling rather lost lor ...... only thing i go for comfort to is dota ..... n also ..... porn ..... where i would forget the rest of the world ..... as how i shud be in this world .... forgotten ..... n be replaced by another who is far more worthy .......

posted by Elwyn at 9:06 PM | 0 comments