lost dreams
My name is MaS,
and i have yet to grow,
from my adolescent state,
to wat many call as a mature adult,
though i am no longer a teen by age,
thy shall act like a kid,
but only for a certain time,
or risk facing trouble thats shit,
im no longer a kid,
im no longer a teen,
but could i still act as one,
for the fun of it.
Life, is shit, and shit is life, and this is how h eruns his life. Life is unfair and so is he,
he harden his soul to create a emotionless spree. He is soo lame he is soo quiet, but that is how he is.
He is all vulgar and also disgusting, but he is who he is and not like other. He holds a principle, based on his soul,
its always changing with the flow of time. The growth is there but it isn't obvious because the life he's in is so damn troublesome.
He may seem all nice, he may seem like a pushover, but never try his limit or you'll face his anger.
His life is tough, and he knows others too have it tough, but everyone is different and they should never be compared.
Comparison kill his spirit, comparison killed his mind, it is as though it is no more his but rather it is others.
He is disturbingly disturbed and sometimes extremely the extreme, but this is rare as its a rare phenomenon.
He is nothing but a fool indeed, living thru this life with all he got.
His life seems awful, but it is to him alone, he wouldn't understand others as how others wouldn't understand him.
Thank you so much for reading this shit, as it means alot for his stuff to be read.
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Friday, September 30, 2005
who gives fucks about me except for just the few
i must be destined to have only a few frens in my life .... it hurts to know they invite another fren out with them ... n not me ..... n right in front of me ..... i guess i can just die peacefully .... cos i aint gonna affect many ppl anywayz .... just a small few ..... life is shit ..... pure shit ....... just feel like dying ... dats all i feel now ....
can i die ......
life is sucky but better yesterday
blur blur day .... just really dunno shit ...... just feel like .... i wanna end my life like dat ..... sakai la me ..... sad case i am ....
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
life sucks to the max .... as usual .....
hate living my life ..... its just surrouded by frustrations .... n full of shit ..... dats about it .... despite the good n happy things dat happens .... there would always be the stupid frustrating stuff dat brings it alll down ....
Monday, September 26, 2005
the missing part in the previous post ....
well well .... anywayz ... if u wanna read this post .... read the post below of this 1 .... understand ..... this is a post of really alot of anger n rage ..... n sooo ... this is about the thrusday ..... n sooo .. the story begins ...... n this is a warning .... i blog this out of my own feelings .... soo dun screw with me ..... despite me having fallen ill ..... sum stupid feverish feeling .... i will still continue
well .... n soo .. i shall continue from where i left .... well .... in the evening ..... my mod was pretty foul already seeing dat i couldnt do any work on my comp at home .... leaving me wasting the 2 hours i had ...... haihz .... really sad case wan la ..... gonna really fuck this comp of mine like tehre is no tomoro .... this comp of mine really needs to be taught a lesson ..... anywayz ..... left to fetch sue .... n reach there around 6 ..... upon reaching there .... i was quite ok already .... hehehe .... then carina was saying dat .... they should call amirul to check whether he brought the tickets or not .... for isabel , carina herself and also for chai hoong ..... n then i heard something .... " oohh noooo " ....... well .... guess wat ... sue lin forgot to bring her ticket ...... arrrggghhhh ... feeling abit stressed there ..... im a worrier .... sooo .... kill me for dat .... anywayz .... u wanna know more .... just read sue's blog la .... simple for me ...... yeah .... im lazy pig ... kill me ......
alright .... after the arrival of amirul feisal .... n then more options open up ..... hahaha ... n finally all was ok ..... anywayz ..... went on to sunway hotel ... where the ball was held .... hehehehe .... there i wore the coat .... hehehe .... i look good ...... especially since i used nearly 1/3 of the gel i got free from macha .,.... really ..... i look good ..... anywayz .... we went on to the hall ... where we met the others .... oohhh ... in my car there was isabel .... heheheh e...... anywayz ... there ... outside of the hall .... they took some pictures .... ok ... i tot maybe i would have a chance hey ...... but unfortunately .... they rather talk to wilson ........ aarrggghhhh ... n they took sooo much more picstures with him ..... ok ... i was pretty ok with it at 1st ..... but after awhile .... i realize .... fuck la .... they dun wanna take picture with me wan ar ...... haiya fuck them la .... n my bad mood begins .... really .... i realize ..... dam it .... ok la ... at the table didnt take much pics ... im ok with it ...... later i found out ... they went out to take pics ...... fuck ...... really shit la ..... i was feeling dam annoyed ..... haihz ... by then ... i really got grumpy man ..... dam sickening ... they went out of the hall ..... ok ... i have to admit .. the other guys also didnt have much pics .... but .... i was practically dun have any pics with isabel, carina, chai hoong, wilson, pei lin, tracy, kit, and also neal .... meaning the whole table except for sue .... took a few pics with her ..... data about it ..... i was tooo upset to really smile anymore ......
anywayz ..... i was also worried about my dam assignment .... haihz .... by the time we ended n left sunway ... it was already 12 .... reaching back at the hotel .... ooohhhh did i mentioned ??? well .. we were staying at the summit hotel ..... n soo .. there everyone changed to go clubbing ..... aaahhhhhhh ... clubs ..... a place i wouldnt wanna go anymore in my lifetime ..... aint my place man ..... if it was me ... i just wanna go to .... to a nice place ..... set a rug .... on a nice slope filled with greens ... n just stare at the sky .... n the beauty of the night .... unfortunately .... it isnt possible here in m'sia ...... if it is .... plz tell me where .... anywayz .... at the club .... everyone was to pay RM20 ...... to shiv ....... i wasnt really in the mood ...... i feel like i wanna be alone ..... just to be alone ..... but dat place was brimming with ppl ..... n soo ..... i wasnt too happy having to pay for going in .... since they r buying the bottle ..... anywayz ..... decided to pay later ..... n then ... asked pei lin .. how much needed to pay .... for both me n sue lin .... n then ... got the amount .... n was told to pay shiv .... ok ... as i wanted to pay shiv ... he was a kind guy saying ..... since u r not drinking ... u dun have to pay la .... actually ... he asked me whether im drinking or not ...... n of course i replied no .... n then he said .. since ur not drinking .... u dun have to pay la .... ok .. dat made me feel better abit .... n then ... the air con was blowing towards us .... sooo it was rather cold ....
anywayz .... sue wanted to dance .... she wanted me to dance with her ... but ..... i wasnt in the mood ..... soo ..... continued to be at the club from 1-3.30 b4 leaving back for the hotel ..... haihz ... n then .... haiya ... alot of stupid stuff happen la then .... really not in the mood to blog it .... bloody headache is killing me ..... anywayz .... i slept the earliest .... sleeping alone .... n sue lin wasnt too happy about dat ..... n also ... carina was extremely noisy ..... dats wat sue says anyway .... i was too bz sleeping ... considering i have towake up early to get to college to finish n hand up my darn assignment ...... fuck shit ..... anywayz ... about the sleeping alone thing ... i cant help it ... i wanted to sleep fast .... they were tooo bz doing dunno wat nut ...... dam shit wan la .... soo i slept 1st ..... yeah ... at the side of hte bed ... on the sleeping bag ...... n sooo ... yeah .... i wasnt happy with dat nite ......
anywayz .... after a whole lot of consideration .... i also blame myself ..... where is the old me ... who would go around saying .... ehh lets take a pic ..... dunno la .... feeling more restraint ..... y .... sue .... she once confessed to me .. she wasnt too happy about me leaving her to take pics with frens i knew last year .... soo ... now i feel dam restraint doing so .... even if i wanna take a pic also ... i have to ask her 1st .... i only remember taking a pic with carolyn ..... n dats all ... the rest .... dun even hope to see my shadow in their pics .... cos i aint there at all .... sooo dun fucking expect any pics of the sunway ball from me .......
its really annoying u know ..... dam it ..... y la do i have to live on .... its really killing me ...... dam it ...... let me just die ..... dats all i ask ...... cos i just dun fit in this world .... god dam ...... feels like ..... life is just meant to die ...... death .... is just wat i see in life ...... haihz ..... sadness prevails many times ...... n sue ..... dun say positive thinking .... i just cant take it anymore .... i've been trying to stay positive for a long time already ..... but .... to no avail .... really ...... i feel like .... i just suit to be a loner ..... a dying loner ......
fuck off n dun ask me shit .... dun ask r u ok stuff ..... screw it ... its all pretencious .... can go die la ..... now i wanna sleep ..... fucking sick shit .... i blog ..... for myself ...... now .... i blog to throw out all of my feelings dat i hold deep down inside ...... sooo .. dun screw with me ..... im really getting tempermental .....
omg .... its been centuries since i've been here
hahahaha .... from the title u shud know dat i havent been here for a long long time .... since my last post la .... hahahaha ..... anywayz ..... just curious .... do u guys really wanna know how i've been doing /??? well .... im pretty much shit ..... yeah .. u heard me .... shit ..... haihz .... its a long long story .... the past week .... was a dreaded week for me .... n the other VU students .... as there is a test .... n there r 2 assignment due in the week ..... really sickening isnt it ??? well well ...... i find it hard to cope lor ...... hahaha .....
well well .... i cant recall everything .... but let me lay down the main highlights of the week ..... n then ... just say dat on monday ..... nothing serious happened on dat day ..... yeah yeah .... nothing dat i can recall of ...... soo moving on .....
on tuesday however .... there is an exam in the evening ... hahaha ... n i only started to do the past year's questions only on dat morning itself ..... dam happening right .... i only did the .... sem 1 2005 ...... sem 2 of 2004 n also sem 1 of 2004 ..... n im down ..... unlike others i see ..... they r all struggling to to finish it up to ..... 2002 ..... wahhhh ..... i was like ... need meh ??? no need la .... i jsut relax like i always do .... hehehehe .... anywayz .... it was a long day ..... a really really long day ..... from morning to night .... hehehehe ..... n then .... cannot remember la .... ate at where .... n soo ... we move on to wed .....
wed ..... wat happen on wednesday leh ??? i cant remember a single thing .... except dat i did some of my assignment work .... dam sien u know doing the dam work ..... haihz ... always finidng excuses not to do it ..... really sad case wan la ..... haihz ..... bad fucker i am ..... hahahahaha .... n soo ... dat night .... played dota ..... due to the fact dat the opponents were strong fuckers a well .... it toook far toooooooooooooooo long dat fucking game ... nearly 2 hours .... after dat ... i did some assignment ... but got into a block ... couldnt do ..... extremely slow .... dam it ..... end up sleeping at .... 3 in the morning .... n woke up at 6 ..... haihz ... 3 hours of sleep is shit .... u feel like shit ..... ok ... moving on to thursday
thursday .... feeling dam irritated .... but yet energetic ..... doing my assignment .... after my 1st class .... went straight away to do my dam work ..... really sakai work i tell u .... aarrggghhhh .... anywayz ...... skipped 1 of the lectures ..... my stupid ISB ...... haihz ... cos gotta prepare for the sunway ball dat nite ..... sooo ..... went back ... reach around 3 .... n got myself ready ... while trying to do my dam fucked up work ..... the ITM assignment ... really fucked up ..... n then off we go ....... ( this shall be continued later on .... cos .... there is alot of things .... i really need to rant about ..... soo ... be patient ... u'll get there sooner or later ..... ) ..... now move on to friday .....
waking up at 7.30 .... compared to my usual 6 .... y u ask .... well .. this is bcos ... i was staying at the summit hotel ..... yeah ..... 10 ppl fit into dat 1 deluxe room ..... sue n i left early so dat i could finished up my ITM assignment .... yes .. i couldnt finish it at home .... y u ask ... .welll ... this is due to my dam fucked up comp dat couldnt open the dam file .... but it could be opened in sue's comp .... n then library's comp .... y not my own comp .... dam it .... really ... fuck dat ..... anywayz .... just finished the loose ends .... dat were really annoying .... and then ... continued on to class ... but b4 dat ... i owed to jairus tan .... a VU guy ... looks nerdy ... but fortunately ... he was just about to reload his printing money ... n i dun wanna reload mine ... cost RM5 .... soo .. i ask whether can share ..... n soo .. he said ok .... yeah babe .... settled the thing for printing ... n then went into class .... n kena tiu cos i didnt bind the dam assignment .... ok .... watever .... screw me then ..... anywayz .... had to stay back to certain unforseen reason ........ n went back ...... had another event .... really ...... alot of things happened in the dam past week ..... after dat ... went to fren's yam cha session at station 1 .... n then .... offf i went to bed ..... fucking sleepy shit .... i'll tell the story later ..... anywayz ... lets go on with sat .... hehehehe
ok ok ok ok okok ..... sat ... woke up .... did some housechores ..... dam sien doing it ... but have to .... n then ... went out with my old school fren meet up with some other frens ... n have a round of comp games ... at mid valley .... dam nice place ..... hehehe but hte comp sux .... enjoyed some time there .... n then ... went back later .... only to play more at nite .... slept at 3 .... haihz ... n then ... ehhh ... dats all la .... moving onto sunday .....
hehehehe ... sunday ... wokeu p nearly 10 la ... n then .... im off ... to fetch sue ... n we went to watch a movie together .... at time square ..... hehehe ... wat movie u ask ..... the myth .... yeah ,... we watched the myth ..... wahhhh dam long movie .... seriously ..... didnt expect for it to be sooo long ... ok ok ok ok .. after dat .... went back to my place ... had a small talk la ..... normal la ... couple stuff to talk la ... ok .... hehehe .. n then went to eat at maideen ... n then .. back .... hehehe ..... n now ... im gonna go sleep ... but i will continue with the story ..... of the missing parts of thursday .... n friday ....
as from this part ..... im already asleep ... it is gonan be continued in the morning ... really ... hehehe ... dun worry ... the missing part is really .... alot of drama .... n personal feelings involved ..... gonna get really dark in dat 1 ..... really .... sooo take carez n have funz ..... hehehehe
Saturday, September 17, 2005
well well .... i've been neglecting my blogging ....
yeah ... i know i've been neglecting my blog lately ..... assignment ..... sleep deprived .... dota ..... ahhhh ... all in 1 ... haiya ..... i know ..... im sooooooo sorry my blog ..... neglecting u sooo much ..... now im neglecting my dam assignment ...... hahahahahaha .... anywayz ....... as u would have already read sue's blog ..... sue n i went for the performance Stomp ...... its a good performance .... i cant say it is a musical ...... cos dun musical have singing .... welll .... i dunno about at ... soo ... i called it a performance ..... dam nice ..... hahahahaha ..... good shit ...... dam funny .... .especially the small guy ...... yeah .... he is truly a funny guy ...... at 1st .... it wasnt dat loud ...... but hey ...... after awhile .... it began to get louder n louder ...... dam ... they r sooo dam coordinated ..... n they r soooo good doing impromptu stuff ..... dam nice ...... hahahaha .... they r all pretty good ...... well ..... like wat they have been promoting ..... students can watch it at a discounted price of RM77 ... all u need to do is ... to be there 1 hour b4 the performance starts ... n then .... just wait n see whether there is availability of seats ... n u can get 2 seats ..... per student of course .... show la ur student card ..... its quite worthwhile i might add ..... hahahahaha ........
anywayz .... lately ..... my patience is really running low ...... too stressed up i guess ..... really need a time off u know .... but hey ... this coming week is the killer week .... dat is gonna kill me thoroughly .... hahahaha ..... dun worry about me .... sum how .... i shall try my best to survive it .... n surive it .... i shall ..... hahahahaha ..... y is my patience lvl is dwindling down ??? it is a sad thing ..... really .... a dam sad thing ..... haihz .... dun worry la .... sumhow .... my hot temperedness will cool down ....... oohhhh my ...... considering how much i have been spending lately .... i need to save more ..... n .... omg .... i gotta find a way to reduce my car's bloody consumption of petrol ..... its gonna kill me if i dun find a way to overcome this soon ..... it'll suck all my money out ..... well .... i read daniel's blog .... n saw him saying he also going through a financial difficulty period ..... but hey ..... to reduce it from the food u take ..... dat is soooo wrong .... i've done dat ..... n it cost me a great deal .... as in financially n psychically ...... yeah man ..... haihz .... like i wanted ... i lost weight when i went to penang .... didnt had the correct amount of food intake to compensate with the amount of energy used during the trip ...... hahahahaha ..... financially ..... i hope i can survive ..... till the end of this year with the amount of money i have now ..... really .... just keep my finger crossed .... n ohhh .... i havent gone shopping for the year yet ..... only spend abit on food .... knowing i love food .... hehehehe ....
alright .... im sure ..... she might read this ...... n i hope ..... soo or not le???? dunno la .... dun care la ..... as though she wans to talk to me .... hahahaha ... this is the truth ..... anywayz .... the she im talking aobut is kit wei lee .... u know y i call her by her full name .... cos kit is her family name ..... n everyone calls her kit .... but i know this from her father ( contacted her online long time ago ... her father calls her lee lee ) ..... but hey ..... they still call her kit ..... anywayz .... she has a bf now .... n i have yet to see her bf u know ..... dam it .... really bad lor if dat is the case ..... cos there r many remarks about how the guy looks ....... n i dunno whether i shud ..... warn him or not ..... maybe i dun ..... cos i dunno him .... n even my best fren .... i didnt warn him about the superb craziness of my ex ..... n soo .... let the vicious cycle begin ....... hahahaha ..... oohhhh .... i wan drama ..... i wan things to watch ....... but .... unfortunately .... i aint got the time now .... gotta rush myself to do everything now ..... soo ... let the vicious cycle of studies begin as well .....
ooohhhh oooohhhhh ..... there is this bloody fucked up Security guy .... he is from security cos i've seen him sitting in the security office .... n the security guys in uniform salutes him when they enter the office ..... he wears formal clothes all the time .... n yet .... he wears g-shock watch ..... if im not mistaken la ...... ok la .... let dat 1 pass ..... but ..... he is 1 bloody annoying fucker ..... truly ..... who the fuck those he think he is ..... going around the college area ..... n mostly the cafeteria ..... n staring at students ...... dat is soooooooo fucked up .... if dat is not fucked up enuf ..... his stares arent just the type of just stare abit n all .... but his stare is like .... the person he stares ..... has commited the greatest sin .... n he has to stare with the greatest intensity .... like he wans to murder u .... it can really stir up the feeling inside of u ..... scary fucker ..... i wonder y is he doing so ....... oohhhh ... wanna know y he stares ??? well ... this is bcos .... apparently .... the students r behaving rather indecently ..... like how .... the girl is sitting down on the chair at the cafeteria ..... the bf .... is standing over her ... n his hands r on the table .... n for dat .... they were scolded ..... n he stares at them .... as how i already describe .... n even after the bf left ..... he continues to stare at the girl ..... like some kind of sick perverted fucker who thinks ... he is the greatest .... n most alim fucker on earth .... dam it ..... oohhh ... alim is bm word ... dunno how to translate .... hehehe ... really .... well ... i n sue also kena ..... but maybe yeah .... wat i did might have been abit indecent la ..... but this has caused some ppl to be paranoid .... including me .... dam it .... i always have to look out for dat fucker ...... n i hope ...... the new couple kena ..... especially when she sits on him ..... hahahaha ... yes i know im mean .... but hey .. i am mean .... especially .... for those who look down on me ..... on such great lvl .... really .... anywayz ..... gotta move on la .... hahahaha
ehh ehhh .... went to watch 'lords of dogtown' aint dat bad ..... too bad i aint got as much knowledge as a certain few ppl whom i know .... this time i shall not mention names ... cos they r rather smart .... n in comparison to me .... i aint street smart .... i aint knowledgable to understand deep stuff ... such as the movie 'old boy' ..... i guess im a rather simple fucker .... who wans to have a laid back life ...... really .... all i wanna do sumtimes is to lie down on the grass under the tree n gaze at the sky ..... n having good food beside me .... while i enjoy my day dreams .... ahhhhhhh ...... yeah .... how could me telling aboutthe movie change into this .... sad case la me ...... hahahaha ..... anywayz .... wat i wan .... is sumthing i cant really have in any time nearby ..... really ..... haihz ..... oohhh ... sooo .. back to the movie .... it was pretty good la .... im even considering getting the dvd ..... if i can spare the extra money for it .... hheehhehe ..... oohhhh watch it with sue ..... n amirul, carina ..... n pei lin n her fren joel was there .... with of course miss tracy n neal ...... hehehehe ..... anywayz ..... watched it on friday nite .... lucky went .... cos i think there wouldnt be anymore later on ..... sad la .... hahaha ....
ooohhhhh ooohhhhh ..... do u guys know ...... i go for foot reflexology ..... wahhhhhh fucking pain wei ...... aaarrrggghhhh ..... went for 6 times already ...... oohhh .... every single time .... it would hurt like helll ..... dam it .... but hey ... at least my week is much better ..... hehehe ... y am i talking about this ..... it is bcos .... i went for foot relfexology today ... after dat ... i went for a hair cut ...... but i didnt cut it short ... instead ... i just thin down my hair ..... now it isnt as fluffy as b4 .... but still it is around the same length ..... hahaha ... went to the RM12 shop for a hair cut .... there is 1 at leisure mall ... unfortunately ... they aint good with their english .... next time try out the 1 at ikano ..... hahahahaha ...... after dat pamper myself with pizza .... from shakey's ..... n of course ... i bought my mag .... even though .... i already ordered them .... dam it .... i gotta make a call to them ... see whether they got my order or not .... lucky i jot down the invoice number .... just hope i can remember to call them on monday only .... hehehehe .... well well ... after dat ... back home .... gotta dry up the clothes which i had put to wash ... dam it ... i totally forgot about them ... gotta take them in later .... aiyayaya ..... i really wish soooo much i can split myself .... really ... got loads to do ... but aint got the time for it ..... oohhhh in the afternoon ... i slept ..... fatigue got to me ... since the lack of sleep .... really ..... i feel like .... there might be a time when i might collapse .... hahahaha .... just jk la guys .. dun worry about me ...... im strong .... i think .....
omg ..... im late .... alrite la .... consider quite long la this post .... gonna edit it later ... for better reading .... ok .... soo .. i end this at .... 8.11 ..... hope all of u out there r well ... n healthy .... n may all things go smoothly for u .....
well well ..... i shall continue abit more .... b4 ending it ...... this post i mean .... hehehehe .... anywayz ..... when i slept in the afternoon .... i kinda lock 1 of my cats with me ..... manja ..... or anja ..... well .... when i slept .... i didnt know where she was .... sooo i turned abit .... n then ... i realize .... she was sleeping on my back .... cos i was sleeping lying flat on my stomach ..... n then i realize ..... well ... i kinda slept from 2-5 ..... aint dat bad rite .... well it was a nice sleep ... .but electricity bill is gonna go up ..... oohhhh .... dam it ..... gotta save there abit tonite ..... anywayz .... dats pretty much all i wanna say ..... soo nitez y'all .... this is at ..... 10.50
Monday, September 12, 2005
its been centuries ..... must be ....
hohohohoho ...... merry merry time with dam assignments ... yup yup .... with my mind blank about studies ..... im suppose to do the assignment ..... is it possible for me ??? i hope soo ..... been struggling hard to stay awake in class ..... in the dam lectures ..... i would start falling asleep as soon as the lecturers starts their lecture ...... n i really doze off ..... dam it .... i cant control it at alll ...... wats happening to me ???? dam it ...... really ..... cant control it ..... n i havent read anything about this sem's subjects at all ..... oohhh yeah ... im sooo fucking screwed arent i ..... well ... dats how it is ....
hehehehehe .... life is good la .... i guess ... since i just taking it easy ... not studying .... playing a fool ..... but i always seem bz ..... n i also feel dam tired nowadays .... i dunno y ..... well ... anywayz .... life is too god dam sienz already ... wanna break out of the daily routine n go for hols with frens .... but hey ..... is it possible ???? i dun think so ..... dam it .... y ... cos its gonna be a tough time ..... dats for sure .... i got a hell lot of stuff to catch up .... amirul was also lacking .... but he catch up in an instance .... .dats him .... n not me ..... dam it .... different ppl have different capabilities ..... n studying isnt 1 of my capabilities ..... listening is my ability ...... n i do it quite ok la .......
anywayz .... im feeling dam tired ..... i will try to update u guys more on myself ..... if i got the time .... n the mood ... to write ..... sooo ... till then ..... see u guys later .....
Sunday, September 04, 2005
heyya .... the greatest fool i am ....
hehehehe .... wazzup everyone ..... well .... though the amount of readers on my blog has reduced tremendously since i reduced my blogging .... but my few loyal readers still reads them .... soo .. im happy dat they still come n read ..... hehehehe ..... well ...... dunno la ..... life gotta go on ..... heard quite a number of stories la ...... i also couldnt believe ...... wat humans there r on this place called earth .......
there r toooooooo many categories ....... truly a frightening place to be ..... with all of these ppl here ...... it really makes u wonder ..... isnt there a way to survive without resorting towards harming others thru out ur life ..... even when ur young ...... no such things rite ..... welll ..... after reading sue's blog ...... hahahaha .... i really wonder ..... if dat is how ppl think ..... there isnt much good in m'sia ..... except for tis food n its night life .... other than dat .... seriously ... the ppl here .... mostly they will be good to u if they know u .... or .... they will be good to u if they know u have alot of money ....... n i mean really really alot of money ... n when the wealth is shown ..... other than dat ..... seriously ..... they dun give much dam about others ......
well dat is the 1 reason y i am vary of others whom i dunno ..... i dun simply go n offer help to others .... yes u can call me a bastard n a jerk .... or a useless piece of shit ...... but i rather to be safe than sorry for helping ppl .... unless its a fren whom i know la ..... strangers .... dun expect any help from me ..... most definately ..... yeah ... trust me .... im just vary against those who maybe faking it to only harm me ..... really ... for all i know they might just be holding a those electric tazer( i really forgot the name of those things .... the thing can zap alot of electric causing ppl to faint) ..... really awful shit ..... or maybe even an accomplice who is holding a metal bar in their hands ready to bang those who come to help ...... call me paranoid ..... but helping others ..... may be a good deed ..... but ur help may be ur last time u will ever breath ur breath of fresh air in ur life ...... n sooo to my point is ... i rather to be safe than sorry .....
n yeah ...... m'sians .... typically they r rude ..... they r kiasu ( learned from s'poreans i guess .... dun hold me responsible here ) ..... they r more racist than b4 ..... dats is my assumption n wat my parents told me .... but cant u see it ..... its really there ..... racism is greatly felt in this time n age ..... y ... i say its the parents ..... teaching their children not to mix with other races ..... only a minority continues to have great integral unity ...... can u tell me ..... how united r we ???
corruption is everywhere ...... truly ..... corruption is the key success here ...... wat to do ...... money enters pockets of ppl who holds power ...... n money buys more power n money ...... truly weak ..... dam it ..... (i think i can get arressted for saying this) .... but i really wonder if they can find this blog of mine .... without the keywords needed ..... hopefully they dun ..... dun wanna get caught by the ISA ..... no trials man ..... die wan ....
toilets r typically dirty .... cos many uncivilised humans live here ..... such as the lower income malays ..... yes i am kutuk-ing malays .... though i am half malay ..... i still hate this typical malays ..... well ... u see ... they lack in hygiene ... really awful .... terrible .... n they walk like they own the road .... n they think they r almighty n powerful in this society ..... thinking bcos they r malay u shud givethem way ..... haihz .... sad case ...... n most of these lower income malays .... they breed like dam mouse ..... they r becoming more of a disease .... dun u think ( im gonna get into serious trouble if this gets out ..... im sooo dead ...... i shud be vary for police coming to arrest me then ) ..... this lower income ppl dunno wat family planning is called .... they have no money .... n they wanna have 10-15 children ...... n yes ..... many malays they have alot of kids ..... min 2 ...... max i have no idea ..... n they cant support their children .... n leaving their children's moral to rot ...... dam it .... they r creating more rubbish than useful ppl ...... haihz ..... im sooo sad i have to kutuk malays ..... but isnt it true ...... haihz .... cant go on la ..... there r sooo many flaws with them ...... most of them .. all talk n no action .... n they r the main contributor to some of the countries greatest problems ......
moving on ...... im just toooooo lazy n tired to talk about the bad things of this beautiful country ..... the country is beautiful ..... but many of the ppl arent .....
alright .... anywayz .... wanna talk abit about wat happen on the merdeka eve nite now ..... hahahaha .... well .... to let u all in about dat time ...... well ... sue lin shed tears ...... n was extremely happy ..... from my assumption ..... n my assumption was correct ..... it was tears of joy .... hehehee ..... well .... y she shed tears of joy ..... well ... i'll let u go hunt around for ur clue ..... well ... it is on the net .... but it isnt here .... it is sumwhere where there r alot of info about me is .... soo ... search for it .... n post in my comments (voices) .... to see whether u r correct or not ..... this is bcos i wanna interact with my readers .....
anywayz .... life has been rather good to me i guess .... but i dun think it will last ... there is alot to do in this coming weeks to come ... especially with a presentation coming .... n minor test due .... wat the hell am i doing ... still downloading songs ... downloading n watching animes ..... really ..... y i love to procrastinate ...... cos i dun wanna push myself .... but it seems dat i have to push my self now ..... if i wanna survive like last sem ...... again .... im gonna work to survive ..... again to pass ... n not to get a distinction ..... hahahaha ... yes .... dat is plain old me ...... i can never cultivate my interest in studies anymore ..... already hated it since form 4 .... soo .... old habits r hard to change ..... really bad ..... but at least i can be proud i like to be an early bird ..... i just dun like being late .... unless i know it is ok to be late abit ..... other than dat .... i rather be early ....
n soooo .... life goes on s they say ..... really ..... but ..... just really i dun like being with my dad ..... he really annoys me ..... greatly ... n soo .... whenever im with him alone ..... it really gets me irritated .... it is only calm if my mother is around .....
n sooooo we shall live on in this world ...... live life strong .... n dun takes things for granted ..... cos u'll never miss them till they r gone .....
live a great life .... n stay strong
