ahhh, now since uni is gonna start soon, i have to kick my butt to start working on preparations for the new semester as life has to change. i know many has left VU to other unis, but i will still stay on. need to get alot of stuff. like, stationaries, papers, and other whatever stuff i need. i think i also need a whole pack load of sweets to keep myself up for this coming sem. i cant doze off in lecture anymore if i am to keep my grades at a good and acceptable level. really, i must turn a new leaf. but it all depends on my determination. i've read a few blogs about ppl who just went overseas to do their studies. im seriously thinking, that if i were to go overseas, then i might need to prepare myself with a whole bunch of skills. so far im at an acceptable level for cooking, and drying out clothes, but still lacking in a whole bunch of stuff, like cleaning and washing. well, that i'll focus later.

anywayz, life would be different now i guess. i must try my best not to stone as much as i did before. i need to learn a whole bunch of stuff, and not only academic stuff, but also stuff which would be useful to me, in my conversations, and also in real life. im really still lacking in that department. im really a slacker and a laid back person, but that has to change. i say that many times, yet i still didnt change. this time i shall try to push myself to the limits with my self determination. i must be be strong and not rever to my old lazy self. or so i say. i have a few things i need to do. like preparing a schedule once i get my timetable out. i need to spend my time more wisely this time around. cant afford anymore slacking. or so i say. i must hold myself to what i have said here today. i know this is a very different post from everything else. but this shall be a sharp reminder for myself that the life i used to lead must come to an end and a new one shall begin. or so i say.

this time around, i have to take care about my stationaries, my books, and the placing of stuff in my room. i still need to clean up my room despite my fatigue. but my laziness is holding me back. this shall no more be the case. i shall force myself to clean up the rest of my room no matter what. and of course try to clean up the computer room a little bit. and then i have to prepare the stuff, like my files, and stuff to be carried around for classes and stuff. new me, meaning new lifestyle (which is a must), new way of studying (which is necessary), new ways of thinking (which i desperately need), new ideas and stands of life (which shall be repaired from the old), and definately, a newer life, towards the ultimate goal.

ahhh, much to do but little time to do it. this is gonna be soo tough, i truly wonder if it is possible for me. i really wonder, and really hope that i can pull this off, so that it would last for the rest of my life. shall start anew, since life in uni is definately gonna be different for me. and sooooo life goes on despite whatever it throws at you. or so i say. well, whatever it throws at me, i will try my best to overcome it, which everything i've got.

shall this year be the same as the years before? or shall it be a totally different? or shall it just be a few minor changes, and everything else the same?

that i shall see soon.

well, life is certainly a bitch, sooo lets face it, and give it a bitch-slap to make things goes by smoother. hahahaha, as though it would happen.

well, time to go to sleep, body and mind extremely tired, and i have a long day ahead of me.

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