lost dreams
My name is MaS,
and i have yet to grow,
from my adolescent state,
to wat many call as a mature adult,
though i am no longer a teen by age,
thy shall act like a kid,
but only for a certain time,
or risk facing trouble thats shit,
im no longer a kid,
im no longer a teen,
but could i still act as one,
for the fun of it.
Life, is shit, and shit is life, and this is how h eruns his life. Life is unfair and so is he,
he harden his soul to create a emotionless spree. He is soo lame he is soo quiet, but that is how he is.
He is all vulgar and also disgusting, but he is who he is and not like other. He holds a principle, based on his soul,
its always changing with the flow of time. The growth is there but it isn't obvious because the life he's in is so damn troublesome.
He may seem all nice, he may seem like a pushover, but never try his limit or you'll face his anger.
His life is tough, and he knows others too have it tough, but everyone is different and they should never be compared.
Comparison kill his spirit, comparison killed his mind, it is as though it is no more his but rather it is others.
He is disturbingly disturbed and sometimes extremely the extreme, but this is rare as its a rare phenomenon.
He is nothing but a fool indeed, living thru this life with all he got.
His life seems awful, but it is to him alone, he wouldn't understand others as how others wouldn't understand him.
Thank you so much for reading this shit, as it means alot for his stuff to be read.
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
wazzup y'all ....
well well ... anywayz ... i wanna point out dat nowadays .... im freaking tired ... from morning till nite ..... i cant seem to pin point the reason as to why i am feeling so ..... i feel drained all day long ..... though there may be sumtime where i may be more life lier than other times ..... not forgetting i ate 5 meals today ..... quite a record .... hahahahaha .... it is for me ... but maybe not for others .... soo .... cant be helped wan la
nowadays .... i sumtimes lose my appetite .... sumtimes i have great appetite .... this is also sumthing i cant explain ..... its very odd for me ... really .... i dunno how to explain it ....
must be sumthing really wrong going on inside of me .... well .... i dunno wats going on with my body at the moment ...... there r soooo many problems ... dats wat i feel .....
but ... i feel lucky since i got a really great lecturer ... who is willing to go out of his way to get me sum medicine .... n its for free ..... chinese medicine aint dat expensive ..... ooo yeah .. this reminds me to eat it now ... the medicine la .......
anywayz .... im done eating those horrible medicine .... feeling tired ... is really bad .... im falling asleep in class .... dat is really bad ... really bad ..... haihz .. cant be helped le ...
soo ... wat i can do is try to sleep early ... n dat i will try ... but ... must release all of the water in my bladder or else i will be waking up in the middle of the nite .... just to go to the toilet .... n its really troublesome ....
soo wait till my bladder isnt dat full then only i sleep ... hahaha ... cos i drank quite an amount of water .... hehehehe
soo this is MaS reporting ..... with a tired look on his face ..... n feeling pretty dead .....
p.s. there was a not so good experience ... but it shall not be blogged about .... only a few would know ....
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
guys .... sorry ... its been a long time
sorry to all my fans n loyal readers out there ..... it has been awhile since i last blog ..... this is due to a very unfortunate event ...... my computer gone crazy on me .... left me hanging by a thread ..... tried to bring it to my fren's place to get it fixed ... but .... unfortunately ... it got worse .... sooo .. in the end ... i had to bring it home ... to be fixed by me alone .....
soo .... i tried to fix my beloved comp ..... which was upgraded sumwhere end of last year ... with parts totalling around RM2000 ...... expensive le .... now it is a better pc .... but ... since i didnt coordinate my software properly .... it has given me much much problems ... soo now im handling much of the reinstalling of the windows ....
i tried many attempts ..... i think ... over the past week .... i installed windows .... without reformatting the drive around 2-3 times ..... im sooo stupid ..... finally ... i knew the problem .... n fix it today ... this morning to be exact ..... hehehehehe ..... anywayz .... lots of things was needed to be done .... i done it a few times ... in the last few windows ...... n had to delete it ....
well ..... very unfortunate .... i forgot to save the 'Beck' songs in the other drives ... .resulting in the lost of soo many beautiful songs ..... n really inspirational ..... believe it .... hehehehehe anywayz ..... i would sincerely apologize to anyone i may have offended recently ... or maybe i didnt .... but .... those days with my comp had prob .... means i myself had probs .... sooo ... to overcome this ..... i will try to restrain my true nature ... my angry side .....
anywayz ..... now back to uni life .... uni life is doing pretty ok .... except for a few facts ..... which is my business law work ..... due on next week ..... n i realize .... i havent done anything yet .... relly a fool i am ..... but wat can i do ..... but to start doing it soon ..... cos in the past week ... i was trying soooo hard to fix my bloody comp ..... which was very sick .... hehehehe ... anywayz ..... i had an ok week last week .... n not forgetting .... i had a great weekend ..... hahahaha ..... just to top it all up ..... a weekend not doing work is already considered a great weekend .... hahahaa ..... laziness syndrome ...... how stupid i am ....
well .... tomoro ... i shall be leaving for uni earlier ... to get parking ... since the parking inside the college would be gone by 8.45 ..... i would reach there around 8.10 ..... yeah ... i know .... its not as early as i was last year ...... yeah ... i know .... i reach in college .... by 7 ... or b4 7 ..... cos i wanna get free parking outside .... but this year .... im aint dat hardworking to wake up dat early ..... plus nowadays i sleep quite late .... later than last year la ... since i got influenced by my special sumone ... cos she is a night person ... im more of a morning person .... hahahaha ....
anywayz .... much to do ... b4 the orientation night this coming friday .... hahaha ..... cant invite frens from other programmes ..... cos .... they already set us in teams for the orientation nite .... hahahaha ..... n the team names .... r based on club names ... or premisses ..... like ..... Nouvo .... Zouk ..... Planet Hollywood ..... Hard Rock Cafe ....... Shadow ..... n i am in Flame ...... dam ... i dunno anyone in the team ..... but dat is the purpose of the teams .... to introduce urself to others in the same program .... meaning ... get to know new frens ... n not stick to ur old group of frens dat u have been hainging around with since the 1st day of class ..... hahahaha ... but i wasnt there .... 1st day of class i mean ..... but i was there for the 1st day of tutorials .... hahahahaha ..... yeah i know ... i entered late ... my own fault .....
talking about dat ... im really lazy to send in a deferment form to the bloody NS committee ...... well ... dats me .... hahahahaha .... procrastination ... number 1 .... but dat has to change ..... but i wont do anything about the stupid ns for the moment ... since i have lots more to do .... hahahaha .... business law ..... business stats ...... microeconomic principles .... management & organisational behaviour .... all have work ..... n it seems ... dat i have an exam tomoro .... isnt dat much more screwed up .... its for BS .... hahahaha ... yeah ... means ... gotta polish abit on my maths ... n geta calculator .... aiyayayayaya ...... gotta get it soon .... haiya .... wanna buy it ... but no stock ... same for the stupid law book ....
anywayz ... i gotta say ... its been a long post .... this 1 .... hahahaa ... alot of crap has been put on this post ... yeah ... i gotta admit .... tonight is a pretty productive night .....
maybe its just bcos i havent blogged for quite sumtime ...... hehehehehe ..... dunno wat to expect from the orientation nite ..... since it will be done in the mph ..... scared of the rain apparently ..... wanted to do it on the rooftop of sunway university college ..... but the rain ..... has played a major factor in the change of venue ....
anywayz .,... now i really feel i dunno wat else to say ..... ooohhh yeah .... now i remember ..... i would like to congratulate my lil sis ..... hahaha ..... nobody would know who she is ..... on the new love in her life ... if she is reading this ....
and i would like to say .... to miss joey n mr daniel who r happily together .,... in HELP ... together .... have a great time with each other ..... in uni life .... i bet all will be fine .... n like u say miss joey .... count ur blessings ..... hehehehe .... im doing just dat at the moment .....
n to my special sumone ... who is also a loyal reader ..... hehehehe ..... its been really fun beoing with u ..... thank u for being with me ... through the up n down of my life ..... n putting up to my soooo crazy ... n stupid ..... n ugly .... yet sarcastic attitude ..... n having to put up to my sumtimes sudden temper ..... im really sorry if i did any wrong to u .... hehehehe .... u can punch me ... but not too much .... it still hurts after sumtime .....
n to all other readers ..... which .... i may not know .... oohhh yeah ... such as soo imm ..... mel(the bimbo who loves to talk alot) ..... kak amy ..... yee ling who just paid a visit .... please do drop by n say hi in my tagboard .... cos it is a place for me to know ur presence there .... ok .... soo .... when u come by .. just say hi ......
sooo .... b4 i end my story for my life at the moment .... i would like to say .... live each day .... with its own purpose .... n live to achieve it .... n live to the fullest ..... cos u shall never know .... how life may have a twisted fate for u .....
soo ... this is MaS reporting ... from his newly reformatted baby .....
p.s. this was started at 9.33 n ended at 10.34
Friday, March 25, 2005
aiya ..... not dat good luck le
soooo sad la .... haihz .... my comp was having many many probs ...... brought it to my fren's house ... to help repair it ..... mana tau ... it became corrupted ..... including the other drives as well ....... many of my beloved anime is gone ..... such as "mai hime", "mahou negima sensei", "bleach", "beck", n a few more titles were corrupted n could not be watched anymore .... looks like i have to download it all over again ..... sad man ....
i also lost alot of pics ...... sum of them ... r only copies .... like my 18th birthday ...... those were my only copy ...... now no more pics already ....... haihz ... sooo sad ..... many things has happen .... but not much time to blog about it .....
oohhh yeah ..... my lecturer who taught me qi gong ..... explained it to me more detailed ..... dam geng ...... but ... i have yet to practice it myself ...... well maybe this weekend try la ..... see how la ....
n dat lecturer is a very kind soul ..... anywayz ... dats about it for now .... my comp needs to be cleaned .... n repaired further
this is MaS reporting ... with a sadden heart ....
Monday, March 21, 2005
dam ....
omg .... i hear a storm brewing ..... a really big storm ahead of me ..... n to those who may think its bcos of them .... no its not u ...... i fear a great storm is brewing within my family .... this kinda stuff ... dun ask me .... not nice to ask ..... but its just for u guys who r wondering y i may act different later .....
anywayz .... gonna start speacial breathing exercise ....... qi gong ..... may the exercise begin .....
this is MaS few words b4 the storm .... n b4 the beginning of the qi gong exercise ...
heyya guys ... again about life
hahahaha life is getting ok .... though im still slacking ... but at least im doing pretty ok .... though the BS work is still not finished ..... but i dunno how to do ... tomoro only ask sumone to help me do it la ... for now ... just wanna relax ..... n yeah ... i mfreaking hungry la ... dam ... gotta go find sumthing to eat .....
hahahaha i eating tim tam .... bloody nice .... n drinking sugar cane water ... special sugar cane .... meant for cooling ..... hehehehe .... wow .... im full now .... hahahaha ..... really ... took me sum time to eat it ..... now im soooo full .... wahhh can sleep nicely .... knowing i have my stomach full ..... hehehehe
anywayz .... now ... im not as stressed up as b4 .... n it seems dat our lady of ipoh .... n the girl who didnt know malay from the country below ... wont be staying at my place after all .... hahahaha .... well ... wat can i say .... there are many circumstances ... cant be helped at all ... trust me ... fate is like dat ..... hahahahah ...
anywayz .... im sooo close to downloading the whole Beck OST .... but at the moment ... im stuck .. cos ... i have to be a member of the site ..... which is named ..... Keiichi Anime Forever ....... not a bad place ..... always get my OST from there .... ahhahaha ..... n ppl out there ..... if u wanna be hopeful ..... watch this anime .... it really kinda a story dat would get u moving .... watching the lead character really doing his best ...... hahaha .... dats wat moved me to do better ..... at wat i am good at ..... which i dun think is studying ... really .....
anywayz ... i really love a few of those songs in the anime ..... its great ...... n the song on my blog .... guys ... its titled "To All Tha Dreamers" ...... from the anime Yakitate Japan .... but im sooo sad .... cos they wont be fansubbing it for 2 months ..... its 1 of the most hilarious anime i have ever watched ... . seriously .... another movie .... where u really can bring up ur hope again ..... watching these animes does help abit ....
well .... my honey's birthday just passed ... on thursday .... but im soo disappointed i couldnt do wat i planned .... many circumstances was brought me to draw a conclusion dat i cant continue ... well ... just have to see la ....
sooo ..... wat do u all think of my new skin ..... i hope u like it guys .... took me .. 2-3 hours completing it .... anywayz .... to all u march babies ..... happy birthday ..... whether it is belated or in advance .... since i see many ppl have their birthday in this month .... hehehehhe anywayz .... like wat i say ... my honey's birthday ... well ... i hope i can make it up to her .... really ....
anywayz .... life is still very unpredictable as i said ... ooohhhhh yeah .... i forgot to go to the doctor .... for my check up .... dam .... such a klutz ...... lousy bugger la i am .... wat can do .... anywayz ... ehh ... did u all realize how i luv to use the word anywayz ??? hahahahahha .... im such a stupid fool ...... very limited vocabulary .... really limited bugger ......
hahahahaha .... well .... for now .... assignments r done ..... not much worry there ... only worry would be the BS n BL n MIP work .... other than dat ... not dat worried am i ..... hahahaha .. i sound like a fool in my words .... hahahahaha trying to yoda ??? stupid fool i am .... again..... hahahaha
anywayz ..... to laugh does help to reduce sum of the stress on ur mind .. really .... anywayz .... dats 1 of the main reasons y i watch animes ... there r sum parts where it really makes u laugh ..... it really does ... to me la ... i dunno about others who r not as enthusiastic as i am .... well .... each person is different rite .... hahahaha .... soo .. i cant say much lor .... wahhh im sooo dam bloody full .... i feel soooo bloated .... really .... n i do feel rather tired .....
well ... would be sleeping soon .... i started writing this post at around 10.50 .... n then went to eat ... chat abit here n there .... do sum other stuff .. n continue back ..... n now its 12 ..... soo sad la me .... well ... its like dat la ... i better sleep soon .... gotta wake up early ...
but lamely .... im not sleeping yet .... stupid idiot .... sleep la ... got class la ... haihz ....
nvm nvm .... sleep la .... can settle my comp stuff in the morning ...
oi guys from all over .... this is MaS reporting from the comfort of his crib ....
Saturday, March 19, 2005
wakakakaka looks like no movie today
hehehehehe ..... with sum news here n there .... finally ... not gonna watch movie already .... hahaha ..... well .... dat means i have to slave in front of the comp doing the MOB work ..... truly terrible no ??? well ... im more scared about BS work ..... wahhh ..... mr tee can really be scary me .... make me skip a few heart beats ...... ahhhh ..... maybe bcos last time i was alone there .... really ... being there alone is sooo dam scary ..... no farking joke ..... well .... looks like a long day of work ahead .... but hey ... at least planned for a nice dinner ma .... soo .... ok la ....
hahahahaha ..... joey ..... i htink i just posted sumthing on ur tagboard ....... well .... for now i say like this ..... there is a trade off ..... or opportunity cost .... if u relax n enjoy .... means .... the work would pile up ..... n extra stress ...... but u have a moment of relieve ....
but .... if u just continue to do the work ... n study continuesly .... im sure i will bound to break down n cry .... really .... how can 1 work for a long time ..... n not rest ..... cos the work is forever coming on n on ..... really ... how can we deal with it .... we slack abit n the work .... piles up like a mountain .... well .... really .... soo .... there must be a trade off sumwhere ....
dats for me la ... cos im a slow person .... guarantee stress like hell .... memang im such a horrible person ma ... well ... wat can be done ??? ok la .... this is wat i think la .... uni life is either u do work ... or have ur work pile up n then u do it while having sum moments of relaxation ..... hahahahaha
uni life is stressful ... i wonder how is working life is like ???? can we cope ??? life is getting to difficult already .... well ..... sum ppl wans to grow older faster ... i rather be a kid n not know all this stuff .....
well ... we r all entitled to our own opinions .... soo .... let us all be just who we r ok .....
this is MaS thinking within his fav crib ....
Friday, March 18, 2005
heyya wazzup y'all
heyya ... guess wat ... life isnt dat bad .... even though today i still feel dead .... but i try to continue on ..... maybe wat i really need is sum time to relax ... n enjoy ... but i dunno whether i can do dat anytime soon or not .... ooohhh yeah ... i have to go for my chicken pox vaccination jab tomoro .... after i check my bp .... really .... i have to check my health ... to see whether im dying or not ...... hahahaha ..... ehh i rather be prepared .....
anywayz .... for the ever continuing stress in uni life ... wouldnt be much help to my bp ...... hahahaha .. trust me i know ... well .... this is wat i think .... the longer i stay in VU ...... the longer the stress will remain on me .... anywayz .... life isnt dat bad .... yeah i know im repeating myself ... but who cares .... i like la ...... anywayz ... there r 2 girls who just read my last post ..... they were very concerned for me .... especially the 1 who is really close to me ..... to y'all ... i bet u shud know by now .....
anywayz .... today i had sum nice conversations ...... it kinda lifted my spirit .... really ..... makes me forget of the work i have at the moment ..... n y am i wasting time on blogging when i shud be doing my assignment work which is due on this coming tuesday .... which i havent even started ... working on yet ..... well .. there is also business stats assignment ... due on thursday .... n business stats work .... have to be done by monday ..... wow ..... i really procrastinate like hell .... i will suffer alot this weekend .. unlike last weekend .... which i kinda had it laid back .....
truly a stressful week for me .... n very heart stopping week also ... considering i was almost caught with siew yan's work ..... haiyo .... i must do my freaking business stats work also this farking weekend .... really screwed up arent i ...... n to daniel n joey ..... my tagboard is different from urs ..... mine dun have the option to delete it ok .... soo .. slowly la u 2 post watever u wan .... hehehehe .... i posted the 1st thing already .... the rest is totally up to u ... really .... up to u ... n other ppl who wans to tag ....
alright .... now im pretty much hungry .... since im still in sunway uni .... in the library ..... typing out my blog of mine ... really ..... wat else dat i like to do .... i really love to stone ...... i really love to talk crap on my farking blog ..... n if it wasnt for my bloody assignments .... i would be enjoying myself ..... n not have to worry about my bp .... cos i know im pretty relax ..... trust me ..... i would be
anywayz .... wanna ask u guys .... dun u guys know wats an ultimatum ??? haven u heard of it b4 ??? well ..... i know wat it means ... but i dunno how to explain the meaning .... really .... i dunno ..... anywayz .... life is crazy .... n very unpredictable .... really ... its unpredictable .... soo ... lets just live life as it is ....
nothing much can be done about the unpredictable stuff dat might happen in the future ... all we can do is to live our lifes ... with the best we've got ... really .... anywayz .... i think i got enuf information for my MOB assisgnment .... nehh .. just now i said due on tuesday wan .... har .. dat 1 la ... soo .. maybe i can just start farking it up tonight or tomoro morning ... b4 coming by here to watch Hitch with them .... in the AV room la .... hahaha ....
aiyo ... there is sooo much to do ... but soo little time to do it ... really sickening la .... unbelievable .... believe it .... ok .... my blog is made long .. cos i like it long ... this way ... ppl wont really read it ... trust me .. like i said in my past post ... the longer the post is ..... the chances of the, ever reading it is lower ...... hahahaha ... except for my few loyal readers ...... like me ... im a loyal reader of all the blogs on my links ..... except for those i know who is really dormant .... muahaha .. those blogs i visit ... only like .... once every week .. or 2 ... hehehehhe ....
well ... i know im wasting alot of time here .... but .. i love wasting time ..... im more of a laid back person .... unlike those who live around me .... sum of them really live a semi fast ... to fast pace life ...... i dun really like being fast n all .... but .... i like slow n steady ..... but im an early guy .... yeah i know ... im a freak ..... cos i feel obligated to go early ... n not be late .... really ..... im like dat ... well ... this is how i am ....
sooo ... dast about all dat i wanna say for now .... cos i know i bore all of my readers if i continue on ... this is the world of the boring MaS ..... wat can do ... MaS memang 1 boring idiot wat .... cant be helped ..... hahahahaha ....
soo .... lers end by wishing all of my readers ... all the best ..... at watever u r doing now .... really ... hahahah .....
this is MaS reporting from the library of sunway uni coll ..... gud byez
Thursday, March 17, 2005
heyya .... life sucks .. let me complain
nyahahahahaha ...... guess wat ppl .... i have been spammed ..... n guess who spammed me ... mr daniel .... the darling of joey the queen monkey ..... hahahaha .... well .... from wat u say ..l... u r asking us to appreciate wat we have ..... n we ask u to appreciate ur time ..... soo ... to all my loyal readers ... including the 1 next to me ... which is my new known loyal reader ..... miss serena ....
oohhhh i forgot to mention .... im in the library computer lab ..... though i shud be doing my assignments .... but im not .... i shud do it soon ... but after i get this post done .... soo ... just let me complain how uni life sucks .... life in ausmat last year was the best time in my life ..... truly .... i love those times ..... but now we r in uni .... soo .... it is tome for us to suffer shit ....
there will be sumthing going on later on tonight .... hopefully .... it will be sum success .... really ... i really wanted to have a really special party for her ... but due to constraint .... i had to forgo dat plan ...... there were many constraint .... really ... truly .... if i wasnt in uni now .... i would be able to carry out the plans for her birthday much better ......
now im thinking whether i shud contact sum other ppl ..... for sumthing else to be done .... truly ... i really dunno ..... im losing my mind here ..... im really under super heavy stress ..... n i think .... my bp has sky rocketed beyond even wat my highest bp was ...... n if this continues on .... well .... im in deep shit .... dats all i can say about it .....
cos i dunno wat happen if got really high bp ..... for a long period of time .... but .... if im not mistaken ... it may lead to the shut down of my organs .... which would also mean death for me .... wonderful isnt it ????
well i certainly think it is beautiful .. considering dat i will suffer b4 i die ..... really ..... i cant believe i will suffer pain b4 i die .... hahahahahhahha
ehh ya .... i forgot to mention ..... since sue mentioned in her blog about feng shui ... the philipine ghost story .... i shud tell about it too ..... actually i watch it 2 times .... even though it was my 2nd time .... i was still shocked by the sudden appearance of the ghost ..... hahahaha im really weak hearted arent i .....
well .... 1 more thing i would like to complain .... my chest pain .... semms to be getting more often .... n sumtimes its longer than b4 .... well .... it is said to be stress pain .... really .... cos my fren ... also complanined about this .... he has been experiencing it since 7 months ago ..... i have been experiencing it for the last 3 years ..... believe it ..... well ... he went for more checks than me ... n the doc told him .... he is the healthiest guy that the doc has even seen ..... but the pain was still there .....
soo .... is it foul play ??? or is it the ever growing stress ... n the inability for us to overcoem this stress making us suffer this horrible sharp pain in the left hand side of the chest ..... well .... nothing can be done .....
wat i can do now is to live my life the way i wan .... n to finish up the bloody assignments which r due next week ..... n thx daniel for spamming my tagboard ..... im not taking it off ..... n thank u for ur words ...... n im telling u to appreciate ur time ... since u guys had time to go to MV for movie n stuff .... really screwed up uni life is .... there is no way can possibly enjoy uni life .... really .... how to enjoy ??? u tell me .... we the 1 who r not so smart ... take more time to study ok .... unlike geniuses .... with super good memory ..... like the person whom i call a monster now ..... since she has great intelligence ...... n doesnt really eat much .... n say ppl r fatter than her .. when it is totally not true .... well .. this monster shall not be named ..... cos i fear dat she will poke me again .... n if she does it again ... i shall bite her finger once again .... i hate her poking me with he needle like fingers .... cos its not ticklish ... but its bloody painful ..... soo .. when ever she does dat ... all i do is bite her .... dats all i can say for now .... n a few of u shud know who im talking about ...... this monster .... shall be .... the talk of my next discussion .... i think ....
this is MaS reporting live from the sunway university college ..... may u rest in peace
Sunday, March 13, 2005
guys ..... me sad .... or happy ???
well ... life sucks ... as usual ... as for my last post .... i did say i was forced into joining this feb intake of VU ... though i entered in march ..... like i care already ... anywayz ..... there is sooo much to do .... but im too lazy to do it at home ..... really lazy im telling u ..... haihz ..... well .....
this is for my grand stupidity ..... there is already 2 assignments due next week ... not this coming week ..... n theres alot of work to do ..... shit la ..... very sien of uni already ..... but wat can do .... just have to continue on with life ...... hhehehehe ... at least i got 1 good news .... to me la ..... im not staying in the hostel condo after all .... now i need to tell the condo management ... dat im not gonna stay .... i know i will be burninbg RM100 ..... but i dun care .... my parents dun mind ...... soo .... im staying at home ..... hahahaha
ok ok ok ..... now next thing is dat ..... im sorry if i have ignored anybody in this past week ... or past few weeks ..... its really been stressful ..... really .... its all in my mind ..... my brain putting alot of stress on its own .... but it cant be helped cos .... im like dat .... it is very automatic ......
well ... now ... have to work hard ...... n its totally not me to work hard .... well ... i still have to work hard .... no matter wat .... or else i would die ...... sooo
i guess dats about it ...... im such a sad case ...... hahahahaha
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
im sooo lost .... but cant be helped
ahhhhhhhhhh ..... my life took a very unsuspected twist ...... an option dat i once left open quite awhile ago ...... was the choice of my life ........ wat the hell im talking about ...... well too alll
im now in victoria university ...... yes i know ....... im suppose to enter in july n stuff ..... but .... under very forceful circumstances ...... i had to enter uni ..... soo .... when i typed in for this entry .... it is just my 2nd day at uni life ...... n im not liking it 1 bit .... soo far la ..... n as for my other frens who r in VU .... they too ... dun seem to like it ..... welll ....... im really under alot of stress ..... cos this decision was really 2 sudden ......
it was only on sunday nite .... the 6th ..... dat i was told to enter uni ..... the next day ..... but ...... as i delayed my decision to do so ...... there was a change in the condition ...... sooo ..... i was finally forced to enter uni ..... it was a dreaded decision .....
i was also told .... dat i must stay in hostel if possible ...... soo .... i would soon not be able to keep the update as often s i usually would ..... but soo far .... i havent got a room yet .. cos there r no rooms available yet .... soo .. waiting list i am la .....
anywayz ..... life is becoming very hectic .... with an assignment/assessment due in 2 weeks ...... im really in deep shit .... considering ... i have to look out for other subjects as well ..... now ..... i feel management & organisation behaviour (MOB) is quite ok ...... business statistic very dull .... n the other 2 i have yet to set foot in neither tutorial nor lecture ...... which is business law .... n microeconomics principle .....
well ..... seems like .... im lost at the moment ..... relying on frens at the moment .... life is very extremely unpredictable ..... this is prove of it
n if ur wondering about my ns .... well .... now i have to bloody postpone it ..... for the rest of my life ... till how long i can la ...... anywayz those stupid fuckers never approved my appeal to enter .... means they dun have the iuntention of letting me enter .... well ... i guess its fate .....
sooo
i guess .... just enjoy life while i still can .... cos i see a very long downward hill for me .... may life turn out better for me soon
MaS reporting for the lfie of MaS
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
look at this .... this r my old school frens .... secondary la ..... n me .... at the left most again ..... but this time with reshmonu .... muahahahaha .... this guy is super funky ... super sporting ..... n super nice guy .... not forgetting .,... hyper active .... no more super ..... hahahaha ... im crapping here ... soo bear with me ..... well .. he was in the crowd .... yes .... he was in the crowd at the hitz.fm birthday bash .... muahahahaha .... sooo ... got the opportunity to take a pic with him la ..... well ... my fren asked him actually .... i just tag along .... n i took this pic .. from my fren .... he is on my friendster .... hehehehe .... enjoy this pic .... n yeah ... later i will post the pic ofthe vouchers i have won ..... soo .. wait for the vouchers .... n maybe the map .... MAYBE only ..... if i can draw it out ..... not easy to draw u know ... hahaha .... ok ok ok .... need to sleep ...... sooo ... nitez u all ..... ooohhh ... i realize ..... ppl read this blog at any time they wanted ... sooo ... to me la ... i wanna wish gud nite .. s i need my rest .....
wakakakaka ..... well .... have a good look here ...... im at the left most of this pic ..... n look who is in the center ..... if u dunno dat guy .... its james baum .... did i spell his name correctly ..... hahahaha ... oohhh .... he seems to have a really skinny gf .... wakaka .... wow .... got sum nice cleavage shot from her ... hahahaha ....
ooohhhhh im super lucky .... arent i ???
muahahahaha ... considering im tired .... n how my luck turn out for the better rite after a small misunderstanding ....... was RM50 ....... worth of kfc stuff la ..... i get free meal voucher ok ..... RM50 worth of meal voucher ok ....... it isnt easy to get u know .... but actually ... it took me less than 1 min to win n grab the prize .....
muahahahahahaha .... wanna hear the story ???? well .... it all began ... with me .. waking up early in the morning ................ at 6.10 ........ nice time no .... well it is too early to wake up for me ... but forced to .... since i had to send my father to kl sentral ..... yeah .... early in the morning .... hahaha .... cold morning it was for me .... hahahaha .. anywayz ... woke my darling up at 9 ..... n then ... had breakfast together ... despite sum minor miscommunication n misunderstanding ...... after dat ... i went to pump petrol .....
hahahahaha .... it seems .... dat all was fated ...... rite after i pumped my petrol .... i went to tmn pertama .... to pay sum bills which i was told to settle it ....... as soon as i was about to reach the roundabout i heard on hit.fm ... was nearby ..... n i quickly drove off to the place ..... muahahaha ... i reach there just in time .... though i didnt get to drink the nestea drink .... but it was ok .... well .... i tried to grab hold of the Hitch tickets ......
to get the tickets .... the hit.fm cruisers .... wans the 1st person who could show .... RM 9 ..... or 9 cents ...... hahahaha ..... i was very slow in finding my money ...... i really wanted to go n catch dat movie .... but i guess ..... i was unlucky to do so .... well .... actually ... it was really my luck .... as they called out those who havent win anything ...... n the next prize is the KFC meal voucher worth RM50 ...... soo .. since i didnt get anything yet .... i joined in .....
sooo ... guess wat they wanted .... they wanted us to play lat tali lat ... u know the game ..... m'sians shud know wat this game is all about ... if u dunno .... u r not m'sian ... or u didnt grow up in m'sia ....... actually ... they did dat bcos ... they only wanted 3 contestents .... soo .... played lat tali lat for 2 rounds the rules r simple ..... if u r showing the same as the cruiser member .... u r out .... i was lucky ..... n i made it thru .... muahahaha .. i was the final 3 contestents ..... hehehhehe ... arent i lucky till then ??? well ... then they asked us to take a look at the kfc o.r. fillet burger voucher ....
soo ... the 3 of us ..... a malay guy ..... a malay lady .... n me ..... ooooo i better mention the place .... it was at jaya jusco maluri ..... hehehehe .... sooo ... we paid close attention to it .... n the cruisers ask us to serach for dat voucher ... which they had earlier hid ..... they also gave a perimeter ...... from where to where to search ..... hahahaha .... well ... i shud draw a map as to how the conditions were .......
hehehehe ... soo ... as soon as the cruisers ask us to search .... the malay guy n malay lady went to the end ofthe perimeter ... hoping dat the coucher is there .... but for me ..... i have no idea y .... but i just turned around ...... 180 degress ...... i n saw a paper ..... i was drawn to it ..... soo .... i slowly make my way to it ..... n as soon as i pick it up ...... hahaha .... it was really the voucher dat the cruisers wans us to search for ..... hahahah
under 1 minute .... n the search was over .... fantastic no ..... muahahahaha .... wat beautiful luck ..... nyahahahaha ...... the cruisers were even surprised dat i found it sooo fast ...... maybe i shud draw the map up as to how i got to find the voucher ..... n with dat .... i won the KFC vouchers ..... worth RM50 .... wakakakaka ..... arent i a lucky bastard ...... i sure feel i am ....
hehehehe ... n soo they asked me to stay to take a pic .... soo ... i waited .... n i knew ... since i already won dat prize .... im not entitled to win anymore things .... soo .. i watch ppl play the games set up by the cruisers .....
as soon as they were done .... they took a pic of me ... by the ford cruiser ...... with the logo of hit.fm at my side .... mauhahahaha ... i hope i look good in dat pic ..... hehehehe ... after dat i went off to pay the bills like im supposed to .... n went on .... back home ... t o watch ... sum nice animes ..... which i downloaded .... hahahaha .. not forgetting the manga which is super hilarious .... muahahahaha .... hahaha ... then actually .. .got sum house chores done .... n had my darling came by to visit me .....
hahahaha ... at night .... ahhh .. dinner time .... had dinner with my mom .... hahahahah .... well ... went to wilwaukee .... in balakong there ..... nyahahahaha ...... ordered .... 2 meals ..... shared both with my mother ....
spaghetti cabonara ...... n the cordon bleu ...... wow .... it was my 1st time eating the cabonara ..... it was superb ..... magnificent ...... both my mother n i ... ate dat 1st .. since they served dat 1 1st ... sooo ... we ate it ..... n wow ...... both of us liked it alot ...... but .. it was later spoilt by the taste of the cordon bleu .....
hahahaha ... now i understand the deliciousness of the spaghetti cabonara ..... hahahahaha ..... i know it now .... n im still pretty full now ... since ate quite late ... around 8 sumthing ..... hahahaha ....
anywayz ....then im back here again .. at the comp ... wanna sleep soon .. as my eyes r already hurting ... the sign dat i need lots of sleep n rest ..... must not drink soo much ... or else i will end up going to the toilet in the middle of my sleep ...... tiu .... well ....
dats all ...... this is MaS reporting life from ....... the place of great peace ..... n tranquility ..... home of the MaS ....... for ..... life of MaS
