lost dreams
My name is MaS,
and i have yet to grow,
from my adolescent state,
to wat many call as a mature adult,
though i am no longer a teen by age,
thy shall act like a kid,
but only for a certain time,
or risk facing trouble thats shit,
im no longer a kid,
im no longer a teen,
but could i still act as one,
for the fun of it.
Life, is shit, and shit is life, and this is how h eruns his life. Life is unfair and so is he,
he harden his soul to create a emotionless spree. He is soo lame he is soo quiet, but that is how he is.
He is all vulgar and also disgusting, but he is who he is and not like other. He holds a principle, based on his soul,
its always changing with the flow of time. The growth is there but it isn't obvious because the life he's in is so damn troublesome.
He may seem all nice, he may seem like a pushover, but never try his limit or you'll face his anger.
His life is tough, and he knows others too have it tough, but everyone is different and they should never be compared.
Comparison kill his spirit, comparison killed his mind, it is as though it is no more his but rather it is others.
He is disturbingly disturbed and sometimes extremely the extreme, but this is rare as its a rare phenomenon.
He is nothing but a fool indeed, living thru this life with all he got.
His life seems awful, but it is to him alone, he wouldn't understand others as how others wouldn't understand him.
Thank you so much for reading this shit, as it means alot for his stuff to be read.
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
another pic yet again ..... im wondering .... wat is pei lin explaining to kit ...... looks very serious to me .... could it be .... sumthing kinky ???? well .... maybe just in my head .... hahahahaha .... ok ok .... looks like this pic is also dull .... no ???
ooooooo look look .... ppl bz eating ..... n talking ...... n smoking ...... n stoning ........ who u stoning u say .... who else but tracy there .... looking into the sky ..... hahahahaha .....
ahhh ... some of the faces at the recent bbq gathering .... wakakakaka ..... some of the early ppl's faces ..... though it is dark .... but not many ppl there yet still ...... sooo .... take pic for fun lor ... of course .... there were pp lwho were already eating .... but we didnt realize only ....
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
hahahaha ... this is wat im feasting on lately .... at night of course ..... hungry u know ..... bloody hungry .... easy .... no need to go out n eat ..... alone ... hahahaha .. cnt be helped .... soo ... got this .. to help fill my empty stomach .... at night ..... or whenever i feel hungry .... hehehehe .....
muahahahaha .... this here is me tryig to get sum padi .... hehehhee ... of course ... it is unwise to do so ..... cos there r alot of snails crawling around .... hahahahaha .... really ..... when i saw ... there were like .... 10-15 of them around ... just a small part ..... wakakkakakaka .. this is a scary field ... anywayz .... guess where this is la ... ok 
Saturday, January 22, 2005
heyya .... this is me n my family .... hehehehe ..... the only pic available now ..... n most latest pic of whole family .... which was taken on june 27th last year ..... quite long isnt it ....... well .... yeah ..... meet my parents ..... hahahahaha
hehehehehe ... i know this is a little late .... but this is the pic during my birthday .... family was there .... whom im holding is my little cousin .... hehehehe .... cute little bugger ..... n a smart bugger at dat ..... hahahaha .. well ... testing my hello program .... nowadays .. .will be picture posts ..... hehehehe
ooo yeah ... it is his birthday soon .... soo going to this little boy's birthday ..... hehehehe .... another year older ..... wat a brat he is .... active ... n smart .... n inquisitive
ahhh ... a monster caught on camera .... nyahahahahaha ..... anywayz .... this was caught by a profesional cameraman .... hope u can see dat ..... mosnters do exist ...... in all of us
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
hahahaha .... finally .....
wakakakakakakak .... finally ..... no more renovations ...... i think la ..... hehehehe .... im free ...... not really dat free .... must must must msut exercise till i die ...... cos to get ready for NS ..... now ..... i must do sum n only sum housechores .... hahahaha ... well .... looks like .... im just plain lazy .... but this attitude must must must change .....
well .... anywayz ..... looks like hari raya haji coming .... hahaha .. gotta go back to kajang ... hehehe .. as usual la ...... well .... my life is getting pretty dull ... but i dun really mind ... though i am suppose to do sum stuff ..... but im blogging here ...... im soooo terrible ..... haihz ..... anywayz ..... to all my loyal readers ...... who still come n visit my blog ..... i thank all of u for ur participation ..... in reading this crappy blog .....
to my sweet honey ..... u r my number 1 loyal reader no .... well ... i hope i can see u .... of course we can meet .,.... but we'll have to see how la .... u wake up late .. .as usual ... but i dun mind la .... ok ok ... yes yes ... i wanna watch the charmed ...... plz bring it over .....
Saturday, January 15, 2005
ooohh .... looks like i have lots of work to do
hahahaha ..... well ... i've settled the NS matter now .... just have to wait n see whether my application gets approved or not ..... if approved .... yes ... my mother's fren's fren ... can put me in whichever camp i choose ..... i wonder whether it is true or not ..... or else ... i might just end up in pahang again .... ooohhhh well .... its ok ..... it would be much better if my camp was closer to home .... well .... i've find out which camp is closest to home ... n its the kuala kubu bharu camp .... nyahahaha ... the camp dat was visited by the PM last year ....
well ... dat camp shud be much better than the rest seeing dat it has been visited by the PM himself ..... sooo ... i hope i can get in .... n get to go to dat camp ..... then my parents can feed me on the weekends .... hehehhee i know i will be starving like shit
n by the time i get back .... im sure i will be skinny like a stick ...... well .... trying to gain as much weight as i can now ..... n gonna exercise more ..... have to ... body really weak ..... hahahaha .. even though tall ... but extremely weak .....
anywayz ..... now ... onto the next stage ... which is to exercise like mad ..... but sadly i still have to stay at home n take care of the house ..... i think it is in the final stages of the renovation .... then .. after dat .... i think im gonna do hardcore exercise ..... n eat alot .... hahahaha ....
till next time ... await for my post ... hahahha .... plz post ur comments in the tagboard area ..... its really getting boring there ....
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
ooo yeah .... im not going to starve anymore at nite ...
hehehehehe ... went shopping ..... groceries shopping .... with my mother of course ..... buy food ..... my parents would never deprive me of food .... they would let me eat anything i wan .... hahahaha ... even junk food ..... u know why ....... cos i was a bloody fussy eater ..... i wont eat much ... when i was young ..... but i always ate chocolate ...... especially kit kat ..... they never stop me from eating watever i wan .. cos .... i have the tendency of not eating .... till my parents were sooo afarid they brought me to see the doctor ... n guess wat the doc said ..... " let him eat whatever he wants to eat " .... well dats wat my parents told me
anywayz ... till now .... im still pretty much a fussy eater ..... but my food dictionary has expended over the years ..... well anyway .... i dun have to worry about getting hungry at nite .... co i have food ..... n i am lucky i can collect the money dat the girl owed me .. .anywayz ... im sure i can survive with the money i have now .... survive till march ..... well ... i think can la ...
well anywayz .... it seems like there isnt much stuff happening .... ppl are enrolling into uni .... n sum r repeating pre-u .... well .... i have yet to write the letter to the NS ppl ..... bloody fool .... i have to write the letter in then only can i enter ... i must enter the NS .... no matter wat ..... so dat all my planning turns out well .....
well ... im seeing more torment up ahead ..... oohhh ... 2 days without renovation ... very nice ..... tomoro start again ... well .... stuck at home again ..... cant be helped .... have to supervise ..... ok la .....
dats about it .......
Friday, January 07, 2005
.... hahahahaha .... lucky lucky ....
well well ... i know i havent been bloggin these past few days .... bad le .... suppose to blog nearly everyday .... but just dat ... dunno wat to blog ..... really no idea .... dun feel like crapping also .....
but today .... got better mood ..... while listening to eminem n his crappy songs .... which really got real deep meanings ...... hahahaha ... love mosh ..... my 1st single ..... mockingbird .... spend some time ..... crazy in love .... n dats about it .... wow .... those songs r really nice ..... hehehehhee
okok .... im here to tell u how lucky i am .... to be able to sell all of my stuff .... my books la ..... hahahaha .... sold my books .... n my calculator .... n some of my notes .... all together ..... getting ..... RM605 ...... hahahaha .... aint dat bad ..... but still suffered a lost ... considering i spent around RM900 .... last year buying the books ..... but dun care .... i really need the money ..... dat is for certain ..... hhahahaha .... anywayz .... now im pretty relief dat there is a flow of income ......
but .... there is a new intake girl ... by the name of kit yee .... still owing me an amount of RM320 ...... bought from me RM420 of stufff ...... hahahaha .... she said can only pay deposit .... i didnt accept it at 1st ..... finally ... i agreed .... hehhehehe .... ok okok .... now to move on ..... lets see ..... ahh
yes yes ...... i feel like .... i need to release myself ..... muahahahaha ...... but .... in due time .... now ..... i just wanna say ....... let the hell of this year begin ...... n torment me as much as it could ......
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
.... im soooo dunno why ......
dunno why ..... today ..... i felt rather low of myself .... no mood to do anything ..... not foul mood ... but no mood .... no spirit ..... dunno why ..... but more lethargic ..... slow moving i am ..... very slow .... slower than usual ... even thinking so much slower .... well .... wat am i to do .... maybe i shud catch some zZzZzZzZz ..... maybe dat would do the trick .... but i dunno ....
my no mood today caused me to offend the 1 i love .... sorry honey .... didnt mean to .... just dat im not in mood .... no mood at all ....... a total opposite from how i was yesterday .... dunno lor ..... yesterday i was pretty crazy ..... n pretty active ..... but now slow ..... very slow ....
maybe i would catch some zZzZzZzZzZz ....... see how i become when i wake up later .... well ... hope my research could be continued later .... for now i think i shud leave my comp alone n drop onto my bed .... lost
blogs r really changing the world ...... even blogs r an issue in the newspaper .... about bringing the latest news ...... especially brought into light by the tsunami ...
well .... dats all ..... lost in space ...... slow ...... tooooo slow ......... started at 3.05 ended at 3.30
Monday, January 03, 2005
wakakakaka
well ..... it wasnt such a bad new year ..... ushering it in ... wasnt as bad as i tot ..... but we didnt had the countdown ...... only the 2 of us .... dat is my loved 1 n i ..... well .... we had sum sparklers ..... lighted up a few ...... to usher in the new year .... i was pretty busy smsing ppl .... well ..... did have sum alone time ..... oooo ya ..... we both ushered in the new year .... in a park ..... taman tasik permaisuri ..... had a nice stroll arouond the lake .... hehehehhee .... b4 dat we both had a good dinner .... n a nice chat .....
well .... dat was the new year's eve ....... well ...... watch phantom of the opera ..... i can understand why isabel cried .... but i cant understand why kit laughed ..... stilll bothers me ...... y did kit laughed ....... well ... the mystery ..... shall be left untouched .... hehehehehe ...... school is starting .... yet i dun have to go to school anymore .... im sooo happy ....... but im not soo happy when i heard how bad the NS camp was ..... sounds like im gonna be a real skeleton by the time i get back from NS .... which would be in june ....
ok ok ok ok ...... book sales coming .... time to clear up all my bloody mess ..... n sort out all of my papers ..... i already sorted them to the subject ..... how else shud i sort them ..... well ... jsut have to see how la .... ok ok ok ok .... dats about all i wanna blog for now ....
another moment of silence for the victims who lost their lives in the tsunami .....
